The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Am in

 

#2664

Well I work at home and I am single living alone. Usually I was going out to gym daily or visiting parents ( my friends working whole day till night ) so basicaly nothing changed too much for me due the changes however staying at home whole day without even able to interact with real person or animal can make u rly weak.

My problem is I use internet like porn: im just clicking same websites same shit watching all time long like in circle. I can sit in front of it, do completely nothing useful and still clicking and watching or searching for something which might be useful. To me the problem is compulsive use of internet : I failed nofap streak mostly due this behaviour, I got tired of this never ending circles and having inner feeling im doing completely nothing useful. Suddanly after yesterday I started to isolate myself for family and friends on phone and wanted just to disappear, even suicidal thoughts appeared in my mind again which I must admit for period of nofap streak I didn't have single of them due rly good mood. I noticed I could laugh more and even getting started to interact with other ppl ( I mean I was the one who was starting the conversations).

I think I need to limit my internet and computer/phone access to some few hours. I got cold turkey program which can do rly great work however Im not sured if in time of quarantine its a good way.
I also relapsed due the fact of coronavirus = a friend of mine phoned me and told that in few days our land is going to be in something similiar to war state and that this virus isnt truly the thing which they show on media = its much worse.
now I think I paniced a lot, I realise I wont be able to survive 3 weeks alone at home, I was like letting go my streak due fact my life will change anyway. Now I think differently. I agree we should stay strong especially bad time might happen in the future and we must be strong during it. not only for ourselves but for the people.

What I need to do is getting started the things I always knew I have to implement :
cold showers
meditation
staying up early mornings [ sunrise]
jogging in the mornign
bike trips
reading books a lot
puzzle solving
working out at home or outside too
eating well
journaling verry important
starting to learn something each day [ cooking lessons, english lessons or other language , books]
and I think its finally good time for me to start learning piano again [ i got bought piano like 2 or 3 years aago and still cant play lol]

Peace!

 

Day 01 almost done!
This whole corona situation is draining me emotionally, everyone is going crazy because of it.
I don't get it...

 

Day 1 here too

 

Day 74

 

relapse again ;(

 

My friends, I fapped again two days ago; no-porn streak is going strong since Feb. 9, but in this challenge I am Day 2, back to Orc.

 

Back to day 0 yesterday
But it's first and the last time
I woke up today super happy and confident
I wanna strick to the tightest schedule to make sure I survive and win

My intentions for the day
1) meditation
2) prayers
3)study 3 hours
4) read self improvement articals
5) project work
6) watch a movie

 

Day 1
Feeling tired because I masturbated 3 times yesterday. I really have to change.

 

Hmmm relapsed on Saturday and ‘m’ on Monday so therefore

again day 1 completed successfully

never give up
Never get down

stay committed towards my goals and no excuses

 

Day 2!

 

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