The blocking system I have in place is unrealistic long term. But I feel like I need it?

So I have made many posts about how I have a really good blocking system on my laptop, where the administrator password is a 30 digit only symbol password that my best friend stores on files on his computer, on other devices and has a few copies of the code on pieces of paper in his house. Like I have said before this code would be near impossible to remember off by heart. Put it this way, I have seen the code hundreds of times and don't have a clue what it is.

So basically I created two different emails and this code is the password of these emails. I then made the only recovery options for these emails the other email. I then changed the name on the email to a lot of jibberish, and I set the date of births to dates that I don't know. I basically made it near impossible to access or recover these emails without this 30 digit symbol password.

So I also have another good few blockers on my laptop that this email is connected to, and the password is also this 30 digit symbol password. I also have my dns settings changed to clean browsing family dns, and I can't change this because I don't have the adminstrator password.

The blocking system I have in place has reached the stage the most things I can see that would cause me to relapse are safe search google images, or restrcited youtube videos. As the restricted mode in youtube is locked on and can't be swtiched off. I have done this through the dns I use and the host file. Which I also can't access without the adminstrator password. All porn and adult content is blocked. Safe search locked on on every search engine and can't be turned off. Every anonymous search engine blocked. Every proxy site blocked. Every VP N blocked. All social media sites blocked. All social media content sharing blocked. So this stops me from being able to see content from social media sites on other websites. All apps blocked, so no social media apps ext. I can't download or uninstall anything without the adminstrator password. I can't do a system restore ext, I can't do a factory reset, I can't put my laptop in to safe mode without this adminstrator password. I basically can't do any recovery options without this adminstrator password

Trust me on this, the level of blocks I have in place is really good, and I can literally hardly see any artifical sexual stimulation at all. I also don't have a smart phone or any other device I can access the internet on, and I don't have a tv.

But basically because of this cornavirus lockdown situation I am living with my grandparents at the moment. Because I help them with stuff, and I can't leave and then come back possibly bringing the coronavirus back in with me.

But I don't have a tv in my room at my grandparents, but my grandfather does have a laptop. I need to know the password for this as my grandfather is basically illiterate with computers.

But over the last 2 days I got my grandfathers laptop and I went in to an extreme PMO binge. My grandfather hardly ever goes on his laptop.

What I honestly don't understand is how guys refuse porn and artifical sexual stimulation, and also how they avoid binging when they have such easy access to all that stuff.

It worries me because I feel like the system I have in place is going to be difficult to keep going forever. But I honestly feel like I need such a strict system where I simply can't access all of that content. I have had this system in place for a long time now, and I honestly would be terrified to have it any other way. But like I said I feel like it is difficult to have a system like this in place forever. It is difficult to go out my way and put a lot of work in to restricting my self like this forever.

What really frustrates me is when I have this system in place I literally go without porn and artifical sexual stimulation without even trying. It basically feels like the option to go on porn and artifical sexual stimulation doesn't exist, and this just makes me forget about it, and not even try to get it. This feels like such relief to me.

But trying to refuse porn and artifical sexual stimulation with being able to easily access it. Yeah that just really doesn't work well for me. It is a nightmare actually.

Last night after my binge I actually even added all this software to my grandfathers laptop, blocking all porn and adult content, making the only way to bypass it doing a factory reset on my grandfathers laptop. I could of also blocked factory reset. But I thought if I did this that this is basically destorying his laptop altogether.

Thankfully a fatory reset takes between 3 to 4 hours to complete. So I hope this is enough of a deterrent for me to not even try to get porn on my grandfathers laptop.

But I feel like doing all that to my grandfathers laptop without his permission is a bit out of order. But on the other hand I feel like I can't be in a situation where I am going to easily be able to access all of that and then this will cause relapsing and binging.

I mean the last two days are a perfect example. I was on a PMO binge for two days straight because I could access all of that. I simly can't have that.