theMotivator's Success Story

Hey, I just wanted to share my story briefly, maybe someone will get really motivated and quit it once and for all. If you want to ask something, feel free to do so.

So it all started when I was 12 or 13 (i am 22 now, for reference), I started to have wet dreams and soon enough got into P and after that, I discovered M. I never talked about it to anyone and "enjoyed" it. But I really felt like I am doing something bad. So I was gone to an addiction level, where I used any opportunity at home (never watched it outside of the home), to watch P or do M - even multiple times a day. And we don't even have doors.

So fast forward to when I was 17 years old - I started to gain some interest in religion (then it was Christianity, now it is Torah (but I still believe in Yeshua as Mashiach) because Christianity is basically really screw'd up - if you are interested - look into history 3rd and 4th century, what happened at the Nicea Council).
At the beginning of summer, I really decided to dedicate my life to G-d and asked Him to help me through his Son (i didn't know much back then about anything, I just wanted this all to stop). And you know what - I was freed from P in one evening. It just stopped. My life started to change and He gave me the power to start changing.

But I fell back into M, by my foolishness, because I thought, that If I don't M at least once a month, it will just break...

So I got addicted from M (only M), again and couldn't stop it for 3 years. I asked G-d for help, but nothing happened. Until 3 years forward - He again gave me motivation and introduced me to Torah and all other stuff that is related to it. It really boosted my motivation and I started to fight (it was right 1 month before Pesach - Passover as English speakers call it). It is the time when His people go out of "Egypt" - slavery.

So it was a really hard fight and I was really trying. At the start it was really hard (and this was not the first attempt). Sometimes I edged but always ran away from it. It continued for a long time (40+ days, till the chaser went away). I started to eat more healthy, started to work out. Also, I started to improve my social skills, social anxiety, etc. Stopped playing PC games etc.

So it has been almost 6 years since I was freed from P madness and 2 years since M madness. And you know what - P and M are equal if you ask me. If you just stop watching P, you just get half of the goods.

Now I am totally different person and I am still improving and changing with the help of Mashiach and G-d of Israel. I'm really thankful to Him - He who made Heavens and Earth, he answered me and was my help and still is.

It is possible, and it is totally worth it. If you stop - stop it completely - don't think of going back to it!