Is my wife porn? ***TRIGGER WARNING***

I think you're in the right direction! The good thing about all of this is YHWH can clean up a messy life! Remember Jesus said I came not to condemn the world, but to save it. I love that verse. He's a Dr to the sick and broken, and we are all broken here! I'm so grateful for His love, mercy and patience. You're in the right direction. Keep it up!

 

OK, I get you now ... just had to google YHWH ...

"Alternative Titles: Jehovah, YHWH. Yahweh, the god of the Israelites, whose name was revealed to Moses as four Hebrew consonants (YHWH) called the tetragrammaton. After the Babylonian Exile (6th century bce), and especially from the 3rd century bce on, Jews ceased to use the name Yahweh for two reasons."

 

Thanks for sharing and clarifying. So are you saying that you are wanting to move on from your wife by accepting the divorce?

 

Correct, sorry lol I AM or Yahweh, the name of God

 

Thank you, sorry if I sounded insensitive. I wasn’t fully sure I was understanding your position and intention as you had mentioned she brought up ‘divorce’ and you’re living miles apart in earlier posts.

It sounds like you’re really at a cross roads in your life while you and your wife have separated while you ‘shore’ up your future and that you are really unsure of the future for you as a married couple BUT you are putting your trust in God AND hoping for a ‘new’ life together despite not knowing exactly what that is at this moment in time.

So tell me, are you feeling in conflict about holding on to the cross dressing clothes? Are you saying you know cross dressing is bad, yet you want to carry on cross dressing and is this why you’ve held on to the cross dressing clothes - do you have them to use them or rather as a keep sake which you’re ‘also’ finding hard to let go of (like the pics and videos of you and your wife).

 

This is one of the heaviest cases I've read on here.

 

Hi @TheKahuna! Thanks for unpacking your stuff, I’m seeing how intertwined it all is for you. I really like your reference to the ‘fruit of the poison tree.’ That resonates with me.

Hey I’m really interested to hear, if you are willing to share, what you have experienced by way of ‘divine intervention’, so to speak. How has God manifest Himself in your life through all this?

 

10 years ago for a 19 year old is a CHASM, for a 40-50 year old it's a snap of the fingers

 

You can make my statement as relative as you wish; 10 years is 10 years. I'm sure you'd shit yourself dirty if someone told you they cut 10 years from your life.

 

I’m a bit late to this thread but thought I’d weigh in with my view @TheKahuna. I’m thinking you’ve received so much negativity on your post because of the triggering comment of ‘for well over a decade I laid the foundation’. If you step back and reread those words out loud they come across as Grooming which is a trigger word for sexual predator. By no means do I think this is what you are. It seems your wife was fine with the changes to your sex life. You ask if it’s considered porn to watch the videos you and your wife made. Porn is watching sexual images on a screen, if you want to go PMO don’t watch the videos, that it’s you and your wife makes no difference, it’s still digital. Another point, with all the hacking and crap that happens in our digital life delete the videos and completely wipe them from your phone. I’m sure you wouldn’t want them to become public because of hacking. Finally you say you’ve turned back to your religion but it sounds like you want to keep one foot in the life you’re trying to change by keeping those videos. You either step two feet into your religion or you don’t. As for your sexual preferences do not label yourself as a lesser man. What happens in the bedroom does not mean it’s who you are. Ever heard of the big alpha male at work coming home and loving to be dominated by his wife in the bedroom ? He still goes into the office the next day and takes on his alpha persona and runs his business

 

in 10 or 20 years you'll realize that 10 years is not 10 years

 

This statement is made under the assumption that my views on life and experiences in it match yours. They don't and they likely never will. You're free to believe whatever you like, but there is no need to project them onto me. This discussion is over.

 

It might seem like they are dependent upon that assumption, especially at such a tender vantage point, but they are more dependent upon the universality of the human experience of time and aging. Not everything in your experience is yours alone. The details of either of our life experiences or views have no bearing on this.. " the essentials don't change " - Samuel Beckett

the discussion continues...

 

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This is horrifying man

 

How is having pics of ur ex wife sucking other guys off and such not porn? Like it makes sense to have pics for ur personal collection but these go deep into the addiction fetishes that essentially ruined his life and he said that they trigger him to masturbate. You rlly think she left cuz of the anger issues and that the things that happened had no effect on the outcome of the marriage? And he actually like the woman. That’s called porn and addiction fking over ur life. He even knows it or wouldn’t be asking the question. This has nothing to do with wanting someone to be celibate or sth it’s best for him. If it’s having the effects, it’s essentially porn and it’s up to him to remove it or not.