Life of PMO and Healing from PMO * RELIGIOUS CONTENT * ( Possible Trigger Content )

START OF PMO

When I was 13, I started to get into anime. Then I started to get into softcore, then into hentai. Then I went into lolicon garbage, and during that time I thought ( hey it's just drawings, right? ). Then I knew, the Lord called out to me. It was all wrong, I looked back in my life saying to myself ; " What the hell was I looking and wacking at? ".


HEALING FROM PMO

Then I started to take action to heal myself, I relapsed here and there. But the more I prayed to God for healing, willpower, strength, etc.


RACKING UP DAYS


During the time I started to heal from PMO, I felt more confident and felt I had more energy to the things I used not to. And I look back on how well i've done, but there was another problem..


WET DREAMS/LUSTFUL THOUGHTS

Once I have stopped masturbating there was the problems of wetdreams and lustful thoughts. Every time I had one I felt instant guilt, the guilt washes over the pleasure from wetdreams. I still struggle through the battles, I lose and I gain victory.



CURRENT DAY

Now, I a 16 yearold. I have gained victory of the temptation of Satan and his doings of sexual immorality. But I struggle of wetdreams and lustful thoughts. I pray to God every night saying to him " Please protect me against the flesh that will try to take advantage whilst I sleep. ". It works, sometimes it doesn't. I've known that to stop wetdreams you must take it to your spirit. You must not have any lustful thoughts, little to none for me.
Now I will not call this a victory just yet, I am going to try to keep my mind pure and my body pure until I meet my spouse. Until then I will call that a victory, seeing woman not as objects but as ones that gives life, love, loyalty, worth protecting.


I thank the community of NOFAP for giving support towards my goals and victory of the 90 day mark. I will continue to abstain from PMO till the day I die.