Mandalorian Challenge 100 Days + [OPEN]

I will look right now at the reasons for my latest relapse, thank you very much for suggesting it. It is time for me to meditate for the day, and I will focus on this. I will identify my triggers in my journal in pen. Perhaps I will put them here onto NoFap as well in the future.

Again, I appreciate the encouragement! I will indeed stay strong.

Let us do this!

 

USA in Georgia

 

Day 0

Sad to say I've made it back to zero days. The quarantine definitely was helping since my main act out place is at work. However, I went to work today. And I was alone. But I feel terrible though.

 

i prayed your safety bro

heard that so many positive on USA, but i believe USA had a the best hospital with complete tool for handling it

 

Great idea. I fastet the last three days like esther and her people in the book of esther. I now have one day in the week for fasting dedicated to god

 

I have a couple days now. This is day three already.

 

yesterday i watched a documentary on youtube about human traficking... and its so sad and real
woman are kidnap and treating like a tool's not a human .
they forced to smile and do dirty thing's by their pimps who backed up by mafia and gangsta (no wonder why nofap too are attacked by those ppl)

the girl's lifespan is just average 6 year's, either their got a sexual disease or killed by the mafia

and even tho they do it on so called "legal prostitution" it just another name to back up organized criminal

after i saw it, i see prostitute differently instead see em as a sex tool like in porn movie when female are all enjoy sex, treat roughly or etc...i rather see em as a human who need help who must do their works to saved their life

and i think its our duty to raise the awareness about the porn , because porn is another root that made this "demand on woman". we are in the right boat (nofap) for not supporting those kind of evil

watch Exodus Cry in the US on youtube..... its contain a depresing image and video but no sexual image... but u might get aroused by how the ex mafia told the viewer about how their "work" the girl... so becarefull if u want to watch it or avoid it if u think its too much and @SaturnDaytona456 i think u have to watch that vid bro the title is "Nefarious : Merchant of souls"

 

Today is day four for me.

 

Sorry guys! I have been away for more than a week. I relapsed on 27th March and I have heard a tough time with negative emotions that felt like depression. However, I have managed to stay clear of PMO for the last nine days simply because I could not bear the thought of feeling worse than I have been experiencing. It is good to see people still battling hard.

 

Day 27 check in. I'm feeling the effects from the lock down now. Need some fresh air.

 

Sorry to hear. Get back on the horse and don't look back!

 

its good to see you to rise again bro... its ok to fail once or two , just made a good fail and learn from it...the important is do not give up

wow it must be hard, hope my country isnot doing a lock down...im so afraid that we go berserk like India

is that total lock down like Italy ? and how ppl reacted on President Trump policies ? i hear that the racism on Asia is high on USA ?

 

Day 10

Double digits once again! This is the bright spot of my day with all the bleakness and pessimism around.

 

In a few hours I will have completed 80 days - but I don't feel like celebrating.

As I continue to change my life the pain just gets worse. There is almost nothing now that prevents me from feeling like absolute shit.
No tasty food that makes me fat and ugly. No orgasms that feel amazing but keep me in a sedated state of false satisfaction. No cigarettes that make me sick but reward me 20 times a day. On top of it my sleep is so disturbed but my job is as stressful as ever.
When I think about the uncomfortable changes that still lie ahead of me I almost feel like puking. When I realize that I'm still at the beginning of my journey I almost feel like that it's to much, too big to pull off.

It's only hope that it keeping me on track right now. I really need to see some light at the end of the tunnel...

 

I'm past 10 days now oh boy! The streak is not the most important now for me, it is the actions I'm more focused on

 

Day 11

I have woken up feeling upbeat and full of energy despite sleeping for 5 hours. I will enjoy this day a moment at a time.

 

I'm on day 90 in this challange and day 114 personal. I wanted to change my username to dignity but it was already taken by someone. Any suggestions what username I could use? pimp isn't fitting anymore.