Too dependent on genric Viagra

Hello all, it's been a while since einjave posted on here but just last night I was with a girl. I have been on and off talking to her and I do feel that there is a connection of sorts and enjoy her company. It seems that every time before we had sex I would take slidanifil bc I was way too anxious/scared to premature ejac and take too long to get hard again. Last night however I didn't take the pills when she initially came by bc I was confident that I could get hard whenever i wants to. And that did happen I had got hard but, ultimately I premature ejac and then she wanted to go longer but I could not get hard again. I ended up sneaking to the bathroom and took the pills which was a good thing bc we ended up having sex three more times after that and I think she enjoyed it.

My problem is that I am way dependent on the pills and I'm about to be 36 yrs old. Which is not too old I don't think. I have done a good job with no porn and masturbation over the last two yrs but can't seem to shake off the p.e and then the refractoring period is way long. I don't know what I can do other than take the pills. Is there anything more I can do? Today as we were watching movies I went to the bathroom and took more pills just in case we would shag again. She ended up going home bc she has to take her dog out.

 

First and foremost thank you for the reply. I do work out and in pretty good shape. I also do a pretty good job of cooking my own food. The p.e I think is from over 20 yrs of porn
In alll those yrs I probably only needed a one or two mins at most if not seconds of watching before I busted.

I do think the next step is to discuss it with her . I will say our body sizes are different . She's probably 4 inches taller than me as I'm 5'9" and she's around 6'1" and she's not skinny like a super model. I'm wondering if the limited positions we can get into has something to do with it. A friend once told me to keep changing positions but for the life of me I cant really know what other position to get in with her.

I feel like she will hear me out if I bring this subject up to her but at the same time I'm hesitant
I don't want to get into some huge discussion about my past or confuse e
Her with my concerns.

 

And yes I do agree there is a performance anxiety I'm dealing wit. I do want to please her and satisfy her I guess I have to do a better job of being intimate with her