Day 7

I'm not feeling any urge to go and watch any bullshit even tho I watched some of the porn that I already got downloaded long time ago (But just for like 30 secs and because I wanted to backup those last pieces of sins and put them away from me). It's been a week since I last logged at some of those websites like ph. Didn't get rid of my backup collection yet because, as I tried before, made me feel very anxious and then I started downloading everything again.
I can tell you that I'm feeling much better since I fixed my sleep schedule. Yeah, I'm going to bed as soon as possible instead of jerking off all the night.
The reason I'm writing this post is just because I feel like I need. I'm feeling a bit weird right now. My feelings are a mess right now, brothers. I'm trying to avoid as much as possible any contact with females, I don't want to see any of them on my screen, being p*** or not. But I'm not mad at them at all for being girls. I just want to get my shit together and not think about anything related to sex or relationshipts. Every time I see any woman I just wish I was married or had a relationship with them. I just want someone with me, just someone to touch, to kiss. I ran away of so many girls before, but mostly because I didn't want to get into a shit relationship. And now I just wish I had somebody with me.
Anyway, I just wanted to put those feelings out because like I said, I'm not sure about what I'm feeling now besides the need of having someone with me.
Sorry for any grammar mistakes, guys. English is not my first language and this forum is everything I got.
Stay strong, guys!

 

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I'm trying to not think much about everything nof*p related but focusing more on quality over quantity. Fixing sleep schedule and avoiding any kind of content that can get "sexual" helped a lot. I don't see myself as the best person to help out other people, but I won't hesitate to share some of my experience and "tricks" to help those in need. It's funny and scarry at the same time how many of us are suffering from the same shit.
I truly wish you the best, brother! Let's win!