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I'm back at the forum, here is my journey:

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by haiihallo, Dec 30, 2019.

  1. haiihallo

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    Day 5: I'm quite tired at the moment, so I don't really remember what I was going through yesterday. What I do know is that I didn't do anything pmo related, so I'm at least a day further than last time.
     
  2. haiihallo

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    A better late than never journal of the past few days and this morning,

    Day 6: This day the challenge got very hard, I started looking at nearly everything PMO related and I wasn't very proud of myself doing this. But hey, I got trough the day without PMO'ing so at least one thing went good.

    Day 7: Day 7 was less hard than day six, but still quite hard. But just like day 6, I didn't PMO so if you look at it that way it went quite good.

    Day 8 (till noon): This morning I woke up with wet underwear, so I had a wet dream. I don't think this counts as a relapse since I couldn't do anything about/against it. On the other hand, I do feel quite tired and unmotivated, so that's not a good thing. I didn't really feel like I wanted to PMO, so that's a good thing.

    To end: i've got two questions for everyone reading this:
    1. Last time (and the times before) I relapsed, I felt very motivated in the beginning to stick to the challenge, but my motivation decreased every time. I think I can, if I do my best, last 3 weeks/a month without PMO, but that's not what I want. I want to quit PMO forever, so if you have tips, please feel free to share them or link me to another thread
    2. As I said I had a wet dream last night, I don't think it is a problem to have a wet dream once, but I want to prevent myself from doing it every week. so if you've got tips on that, please share them/link me to another thread.
     
  3. Nutbush73

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    Wet dream aint a problem - natural and wouldn't bother me
    1 day at a time
    I used to make mistake of setting my goals too far/high - I want to quit forever, but found then when I did relapse the guilt and dis-motivation was stronger and I would binge.
    So for me now its one day at a time and let the counter do the counting.
     
  4. haiihallo

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    I've been off the forum for a few days, and in one of those days I relapsed. I think because of the chaser effect since it happened 2 days after the wet dream. So I relapsed at the 13th, and right now I'm on day 4.
     
  5. haiihallo

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    I think taking it one day at the time is an really good idea! What I'm doing at the moment is a 14 day challenge, because it would break my record of 10 days (3-13 January) and it doesn't seem that big of a challenge. Another thing which has really helped me the past four days is having a friend outside the forum who supports me with the challenge. In the beginning I was a bit scared of telling it to someone in "real life" but it really helped me. I'm quite busy with school and activities at the moment, but I will try to give updates
     
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  6. You did it !
     
  7. haiihallo

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    Unfortunately I didn't, I forgot to update the day counter. As I said in my last post my current streak is since 13 January (so at the moment 4 days)
     
  8. haiihallo

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    I've been off the forum for quite a long time, I'll tell you what happened the past days/weeks.

    So I'll start with the bad news, I relapsed at the 26th of January, after nearly reaching my goal of 14 days (relapse on day 13.) I think the relapse was because of the other things I did to get dopamine, outside watching porn (In my case watching asmr videos form pretty girls with as much personal and sexual attention). So that's a thing I definitely don't want to do anymore, because I think this was the main reason for my relapse.

    A thing I learned form a friend of mine, who is currently trying to stop smoking, is that if you don't focus on the challenge, it will be easier. This method really worked for me, and I think it will help me to completely overcome my addiction. I also used something Nutbush73 shared, and I took it one day at a time and didn't count the days. From my experience, this method really works and it completely suits the way I was doing it. The thing which I think is so good about this method, is that if you're not thinking about the challenge, you're not thinking about anything porn relates to.

    So as you can see on the day counter, I'm at one week right now, and the challenge has never been easier for me than the last week. I think the method I mentioned above is a really good way to approach this challenge, and I'd recommend it to anyone doing the challenge who's very busy with it, and already knows the effects of porn.
    The last thing I want to mention is that I'm really feeling back in the challenge, because the urge to watch porn/fap is really back. So I hope I will break my last record, and hold on for more than 6 days after today. The goal right now is to hold on to the challenge for three weeks, so 21 days.
     
  9. haiihallo

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    Today I'm back, after nearly two months. In the first ~10 days I stuck to the challenge, but after that I failed the challenge a lot of times, so I am going to start again today! my first goal is one week, right now I feel like I am really able to do it.
    Of course I'll read the tips you guys gave me again so I'm starting with more knowledge than last time. More tips are always welcome :)
     
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  10. haiihallo

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    Day 1: Don't really feel the challenge, but I don't think that's strange after one day
     
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  11. Bhap

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    Good luck with it mate, just rember not to let your guard down even when you 'dont feel the challenge', thats when it will creep up and cause relapse. Also its great your starting your goals low, however always rember the real goal should be a 'reboot', what Ive found to be better is to set a goal (current 90days) and reward myself at milestones, e.g. 7days, 2 weeks, 1month, and so on.

    This might be different for you, but ive always noticed small goals make you feel youve 'won the war', when all youve really won is a 'monor battle', which ive found can create a false sense of security and cause relapse.
     
  12. haiihallo

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    Thanks for your advice! I have not tried your method before, till now I have just been setting a goal which I thought I could reach. I am not sure about how setting longer goals will affect my journey. It could either speed up my progress because of the goal I have, or slow it down because I do not get the dose of happiness when I reach a goal. But perhaps your rewards help with that. I am wondering what kind of rewards do you have for yourself?

    What I meant by "I don't feel the challenge" is that I do not have very strong urges yet. But that's probably because I would normally (without the challenge) PMO around 3 times a week.
     
  13. haiihallo

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    Day 2: Like day 1, this day went by fairly easy in terms of Nofap. I hope the rest of the challenge will go just like these two days, but I don't think so. No further extraordinary things this day.
     
  14. haiihallo

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    Day 3: A few little urges, but still nothing special. It's going quite well (as far as I can say on day 3)
     
  15. haiihallo

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    Day 4: Day 4 was the same as day 3, so I did feel the challenge but it was nothing too hard. Sorry for the short day reports but here is not really anything to talk about.
     
  16. haiihallo

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    Day 5: During the night between day 4 and 5 I had a wet dream, It happened before so I know what to do with it. Like other days there were some urges, but nothing too difficult.
    Day 6: I was really tired this day; normally that would be a bad thing but this time I was also to tired to PMO, so I'm still in :)
     
  17. haiihallo

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    Day 7: Beside the fact that I didn't do a lot this day, I really felt happy. I also saw things from a different perspective which could be very helpful in the future, of course I'm not 100% sure that this is because of nofap, but there is a big chance since I'm in the part of the challenge where people see the first benefits.
    With new perspectives there are also a lot of new things to think about, so that's what I'm doing at the moment (during day 8) and I hope I'll become either wiser or happier from it.
     
  18. haiihallo

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    Day 8: as I had expected the challenge became much harder after some time, this was the first day of it, but I didn't pmo so it went quite well

    Day 9: same as day 8; quite hard but not too hard to lose myself in the challenge
     
  19. haiihallo

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    Day 10: This day was hard, just like day 8 and 9. I thought about Bhap's comment about rewarding yourself. Something I came up with was writing a success story on day 30; The challenge is getting harder and harder but the results are getting better and better. I hope I can motivate at least one person with my success story just like other people's success stories do for me.
    Sorry for any grammar/spelling mistakes, it's quite late over here and I'm not fully awake anymore
     
  20. haiihallo

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    I relapsed on day 11, and I kept on failing the challenge. I don't know why, but when I don't visit the forum for one day, I relapse the same day or the day after. I'm starting again right now, and for this time the challenge is to at least stick to looking at the forum every day and updating my report
     

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