For the boys! Noob returning after 3 years -- Pass or Fail!?

The last time I made a log, I was 18. Now I'm 21

SKIP TO THE END IF YOU WANNA KNOW

3 years ago, I was so confident. I was so sure that I had broken this curse and believed that my years of struggles and effort made me smart enough to never make the same stupid mistakes again.

I was a kid straight out of high school. I had lived in a country where women were covered from head to toe and social interaction with the opposite gender was illegal. Things like drugs/alcohol/sex/parties didn't exist either. Getting addicted to porn was easy as most kids like me didn't have much of a social life. However, quitting pmo made me feel like I had defeated my greatest enemy and that I was ready for any challenge.

I went off to university in a foreign country. Now that was a whole NEW WORLD
As time progressed, I experienced a lot of new things but my BIGGEST mistake was thinking that the mission was over! To all the new fapstronauts in this community, once you embark on this journey, just know that it is not mission complete till the day you die.

I want to share with you all my mistakes so maybe you can learn and avoid from falling into the same traps. But as I'm typing this, I realize that it will not help or be as effective.

The secret sauce is to just keep working on yourself and live your life!

• Be determined
• Have daily goals
• Keep yourself busy in a productive manner
• Focus on your health
• and much more!

I relapsed slowly overtime to the point that one day I had completely forgotten about the horrors of pornography and masturbation. It became a habit and I had convinced myself that it was good for me as it did make me feel better. I started to have lots of problems in life but I blamed other things for it. I would struggle to be better but would always fail. I have come to the same realization again that I had years ago about how porn and excessive masturbation can ruin your life!

None of you would be here on this website if you didn't believe that porn affects you. You all have had your fair share of troubles which made you realize that you need to change this habit. Everyone here is different in how they perceive things and or what they believe in but the common denominator is that it affects your mental health in unimaginable ways. It alters your

• thought process
• energy
• emotions
• natural responses to stress
• chemical balance
• brain function

All together, what first might seem like just watching a video and having a quick wank. No big deal? right!? Later becomes the very thing that deceives you.

PMO:

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You think you are in control but pmo is one of the things that affects your mental/physical health in a way that it forces you to make decisions because you "feel like you're bored or something you saw made you aroused so you think its only natural," but you're really just addicted!

Its probably been more than a week since I stopped pmo but today I couldn't take it and watched a very short porn clip. All because I saw a very hot meme which was a trigger for me. The withdrawals I have been feeling are absolutely horrible! In all my years in this battle, it was never as difficult for me as it is now. Even with all the knowledge and experience, I am struggling so much. Any tips I share will be helpful in avoiding some of the relapse traps but the real pain while quitting is YOUR OWN SELF. I hope this day never arrives for you. My own body craves for it like a drug. My mind goes blank and I'll also feel super anxious. There is pain throughout the whole body, high fever, insomnia, and much more. Its a total nightmare. I have so many issues that I can't count and it seems like it would be so easy to relapse; "just this once and then it will be easy to quit," is A BIG FAT LIE!

I didn't allow myself for a week to engage in any form of pmo and fought through every single temptation and withdrawal no matter how hard it was. I will tell you people how to make it easier on yourselves but that brings me back to the main point I was trying to make from the start. The secret sauce is to just keep working on yourself and live your life!

If you are not determined to change and don't have the will power, you will surely relapse and it will only become harder/nearly impossible to break the habit.

THE SECRET TO THE SECRET SAUCE​

A habit cannot be REMOVED but can only be REPLACED !
That is why if you keep working on yourself, basically trying to achieve your goals. Replacing your old habits with new habits that benefit you and your agenda, it will become easier for you to quit pmo and actually be able to be satisfied with life. You can succeed! Believe It!

Reply at the bottom if you need help with any troubles that you might be facing! We can all share and help each other so we can all make it out together <3
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I don't know how I disappeared for so long but I return here once again. Thank you for your really kind words. I hope you've been well.