A Reset, To Be Sure, But A Welcome One

I had a reset yesterday. I have rolled back my counter accordingly. One expects their first stumble in the NoFap journey to be a fairly miserable experience, wrought with defeat, regret, and a lingering sense of guilt. I have to say, I did not relapse, and I am quite happy with my reset. Let me explain a tad.

I got into NoFap with two primary goals. The first was to destroy or marginally diminish the destructive, immoral, and absolutely degenerate fantasies that I developed from years of pornography abuse. The second was to re-align my sexual instincts with my girlfriend, where they belong. I am relieved with my reset because both of these goals have seen incredible progress thus far, and this was only the first of many streaks. I intend to double this failed one, from one week into two weeks, for my next attempt.

In my reset yesterday, I found nothing stimulating but the dirty conversations and pictures and memories exchanged with my girlfriend. It was this that I MO'd to and even though the orgasm was not as powerful as it would have been with her, I was relieved and overcome with a sense of peace that there was no guilt or shame seeping in afterwards like there always is with pornography. The thoughts and temptations of pornography and its imaginative side effects are still in me, but I am winning.

My spirits are as high as can be, gentlemen. Let my story remind you that a reset is not always defeat. There is always something to learn and there is always a tomorrow.

 

Well, my counter was counting PMO. I did M and O, and debatably, the erotic material of my girlfriend is P. So it is a reset. It is just not a relapse because the behaviour was an isolated incident and is not going to continue into a resumption of bad habits.