Accountability for All

I am back Day 0

 

Relapsed

 

Day fifteen the urges are strong but they are liars which I will kick in the gonads. I almost relapsed my brothers. This cannot happen, I repeat, cannot happen.

 

Can anyone help me. I'm trying not quit facebook/insta fapping, which I have done for last 10 years. Before that I was good with girls

 

Hi guys, I relapsed many times in the last month and also in this month, I feel too bad, I have been struggling with PMO since December. Today I begin again.

 

Reminding myself that jerking over a random girl on fb is not going to get me a nice gf. I have had many nice girls talk to me outside of the fb world. One at university was very friendly to me. She would share food and ask how I was. Really looking forward to bringing a real girl home - not pixels

 

Day 1, Check in

 

Ok got horny. Saw linkedin profile. Started edging to imagination. Falsely telling myself that stroking aggressively is good. Not like a real gf session.

 

Hi guys, relapsed about half an hour ago. Pretty disappointed with myself. Been having some trouble with my girlfriend the last few days which has been getting pretty bad the last couple of days. I don't want to blame that for it, but I think how that made me feel drove me to towards the P. Any advice on what to do when you're stressed or down in the dumps about something?

 

Day 70

Bloody hell day 70. Alright here are some things I've noticed that I haven't mentioned previously.
Weirdly enough, My face is a little different. I noticed that my jaw is a little stronger so that's neat. There's a dark circle developing around my iris in my eyes, I know that sounds weird but trust me it's happening.
I have way more energy, as I'm writing this I literally can't sit still. I have to be moving something or I feel like I'm going to explode.
Unfortunately, I haven't really noticed any social changes since y'know the whole lockdown but I'm hoping something will happen.
I do have the desire to have a meaning full connection with someone now. Though I have a strange love-hate relationship with women and I have a non-conventional view on sex which is that it's sacred which has previously been a turn off for some women. Maybe the nice ones will be able to sniff me out I dunno. Anyways I wish you all luck on your journey. Here's some wise words from my music teacher that can be used in this context. "Don't measure yourself with someone else's ruler" You're all on your own path, so make sure that you stick to it.

 

Starting day 3. I have some flash images that want to turn me on but I don't give them atention.

 

Day sixteen of ninety. Don’t ever give up, don’t ever be a slave. "Let virtue distinguish the brave, place riches in lowest degree: think them poorest who can be a slave, them richest who dare to be free" - Both sides the Tweed.

 

I have been thinking a bit sad these days and also stroking my cock a bit while working at home

 

Relapsed a lot of times this month but I'm not giving up.
I will write updates every day on this forum.

 

Day 2 check in

 

Today I'm trying not to stroke or fap. I've noticed that the fapping is injuring the penis and reducing my erection - which I need when I meet a girl

 

I just joined this today. I have been addicted to porn for the past 6 years. now I am 20. porn has turned my life upside down. social anxiety, fear,lack of confidence, menal fatigue with out any reason, sleepiness etc.. I had gone for 41 days before. I didn't know there is a forum where people with the same problem like me assembled to tackle their problem till now. I have found you now. I will gladly start my journey from now on (April 16).

 

Day 17 not one Golden Drop escapes. I will not bow down to the filth of lust, the pettiness of modern society, the mindless entertainment, the hip hop culture, the consumerism, the hatred of nature and natural things. I will not be part of the crowd. I will not try to get along, I never have. I hear the beating of a drum in the rumble of thunder, the wild sound of the pipe drone in the grackle birds call of a chilly morning. So called “progress”, much of it has been a ridiculous facade and escapism from reality.

 

Day 3 I'm very tired, but I do it. I hope to do it again tomorrow.