Porn Addiction Reboot

Hey guys:

I'm going to create a log of my porn addiction recovery. For now I am giving up watching porn videos but I will still orgasam once a day. Day one is officially tomorrow and I am ready to fill my day with activities and work that will prevent me from relapsing.

 

i'll consider it. it all depends how im feeling today

 

Day 1: First day was really easy because I had a Zoom session with my friends; this filled my time at night. I had a very productive day, mainly focusing on my school work. I also did an intense work out session. I share a small studio with my younger brother so it is difficult for me to work on myself while he is there because it makes things awkward lol Today is the second day and it seems like I really have nothing to do but school work. I wish I can talk to a friend or have a online event. It really sucks staying at home. I don't think I am going to watch P or MO today.

 

Day 3: Today feels like it is going to be a good day. I need to exercise for sure. I feel like after quarantine I am going to need to spend more time at the gym. My upper body muscles are showing progress; it looks much bigger. My penis area feels good and I am having lots of luck with my dating apps. I trying to focus on school work today for sure

 

Day 4: I feel more in control of my thoughts. My mind will start reliving my negative experience and I will chime in the middle "wait why am I reliving this crap." I notice that the urges are not too strong right now. I'm starting to realize that love is more than sex. I'm going to finish a lot of my school work, exercise, learn about love and make a plan for the future.

 

Day 5: this is going to be an extremely tough day. I woke up early today and have very little work to do. I quickly complete all my task, get groceries, get takeout and even do a video conference. I have so much energy and now the urges are starting to kick in. I can't exercise because I'm still very soar from my work out the other day. I did a short walk to pass time by. After I came back all I could think about was porn. I didn't want to have sex, I wanted to bust a nut to a video. It is so unnatural and I will try my hardest to fight my urges.

I have also been thinking about setting goals. My goals are to own a house before the age of thirty, earn a six figure salary by thirty, be married by thirty, and make it past 30 days no PMO.

 

Day 6: Yesterday was really tough but I made it through! I feel like these logs are helping a lot even though nobody reads them? anyways last night I came up with a lot of things I could do to pass time. These things really help me be productive. I have noticed that I have had a massive increase in energy lately and less stomach pain. These may be due to NoFap. I hope to continue my journey today and not relapse.

 

People are reading it. Don't worry
For me it's good to read journals of people. It is motivating to see people fighting and succeeding against PMO

Congraz to day 6

 

Day 7: I made it to day 7!! I feel like I'm about to do something great really soon. A massive problem is going to be eliminated and replaced with a much smaller problem. Happiness will occur again. Today I'm going to focus on advancing my career, planning the future, hanging out with friends (zoom/social media) and relaxing.

I am starting to create a plan b for everything so I keep moving forward in through tough times. I also have been thinking about not sharing how hard I work with my friends anymore. Whenever I let them know about my plans they always try to talk me out of it or make me feel like I'm crazy. However, that is not going to happen because I am not going to share it with them.

I hope to continue my No PMO streak today.

 

Day 8: I had the strongest urges of my entire life yesterday! I was just sitting at my desk and would randomly get a boner for 5 minutes. This happened multiple times. Anyways, I won because I did not engage in PMO. Today is going to be a productive day; I hope I will see a decrease in urges. I am so proud of myself for making it this far and I can't wait till day 30!

 

Good job bro. Stay strong. Next goal is 10 days
Just one step after another

 

Day 10!! I feel so amazing. I am going out more, socializing more, attending more virtual events and enjoying my life. I am starting to realize that this quarantine is becoming a blessing because it allowed me to continue my nofap journey and eliminate the vices (porn) from my life. I am going to continue being productive and fight those annoying urges. I am stronger than my urges, I am in charge

 

Day 13: The Relapse... I was on tinder today and saw a sexy pic and I jerked off and orgasmed. I feel so terrible after; headache, regret anger. It was really frustrating and I automatically felt tired after orgasming. I reset my clock and am hoping I don't relapse again. I want to at least make through the next thirty days.