VICTORY!

Hey guys and gals,I am feeling very excited and grateful this morning. Yesterday was one of the best days of my life. I believe that i achieved a major milestone in this journey. So for me my cycle has been at around day 10 i start feeling the urges and by the time i get to around day 15 or so i end up relapsing. So yesterday was one of those days. I woke up feeling very much okay but as the day went on the urges came stroooong but for some reason i told myself "This time you won't get me". I sat on my couch took deep breaths very tempted to turn on my laptop. It was literally two steps away but I said no. I got a book and started reading it and after three pages my mind was not there at all. I suddenly felt tired and sleepy. So normally i would have turned to porn just to get my brain excited. But for yesterday i decided to take a nap. Yes guys with all my urges and anxiety and depression i took a two hour nap and trust me I have never woken up feeling that good about myself. The urges had reduced but still I was feeling very tired so I decided not to try and do anything involving cause I felt like that would lead to a relapse and so by the grace of God I managed to get through the day without looking at porn. This is a very big deal for me because never before in this recovery journey have i ever managed to fight off such strong urges. I believe this is a sign that i am making progress and I hope and pray that Jesus takes me through this. See you in another 15 days after hitting my 30 day mark.

 

Always remember that it is difficult but it is worth it

 

Thank you,let's keep on keeping on.