New rebooting after long drowning

May we all

 

Day 23

It's been 3 days since last time.
Nothing new,only the usual( urges,mode swinging) it's hilarious how i defends myself against this pushy desires, i only say to me: if u want a freaking headaches do it.
Seriously i hate headaches more than worrying about my future.
Anyway, Have a good day and stay_safe,stay_Home.

 

Day 26
I met a girl i had a crush on her in high-school ,I got drift out of my standards and had sex, i don't regret it, i really needed that, i felt so much happiness after it and frankly i know it'll be chasing me and l'll be craving, but as long as P & M is not an option i'll be good.

 

Day 27

I slept for like half of the day, then i got this wierd urge to watch the type of tv shows when a very poor desperate family gets help and i start crying over thier reactions
"Quarantine disorders"
i lived most of the couple of last years like an introvert, now i realized why i shouldn't do that.

 

Day 31
I guess my journal comes to it's end in here.
I haven't been posting daily cuz all days are similar nowadays, but i'm going through a deaf phase along with depression and anxiety
And worst than that, i'm suffering nonsense erections at night with no absolute urge
it's really pissing me.
Once & twice again here iam signing my bored ass smile and wish you a non depressing days filled with happiness