Starting Over

I masturbated after many days today. Maybe 50 days. I haven't been keeping track.

I decided to come back to the forum so that I can start afresh and aim higher. I always had a vision for making it to 1000 days free from MO. That is still my big goal. 1000 days is 3+ years. I am 31 years old now. Have been on this forum since I was 24. Many things have changed. Many haven't. I am very optimistic despite a thousand plus failures. I feel like the first step for me is to not be disappointed with failure. Take it in and learn from it.

So what did I learn today? I learn't that if I am to be serious about my 1000 day goal then I must make some changes. Simple changes. But I must make them.

1. Use a phone that is not smart.
2. Do not eat after 10pm. Come what may. only 1000 days to go.
3. Wake up with meditation, wake up with yoga and not with your phone.
4. Eat healthy. Stay light and stay fresh.
5. Shut your self down after 8pm meditation. Don't talk if possible and definitely don't argue with people.

Follow these rules sincerely and strictly. Don't be lazy or lenient about these simple points.

I will keep updating every day. Keeping my commitment at 100% and more.

 

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Day 1

I have been lazy. It happened once more yesterday after the first time. Its quite a typical pattern. When it happens once then tends happen again soon and then more. I am hoping to stop that fall and get through the first 10-11 days. Which I think are tough.

I will be meditating and doing yoga over this weekend as part of an online program. I strongly believe that this will help me get back up and moving. Will keep checking in and posting about my progress.