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Starting My Journey,

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Sed, Apr 13, 2020.

  1. Sed

    Sed Fapstronaut

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    Thank you, brother :)

    It is my ninth night sober. I feel well. I have been complimented on my work today. It has been some time since I received praise on my work.

    Today I was struck with an epiphany of why we often fail in achieving anything that mounts to value. Not restricted to succeeding in NoFap but about anything. That is Doubt. Today I was thinking about whether I am going to really succeed in this or not. The simple option of failing makes me want to give it all up. This is true to other things as well. I have started all sorts of meaningful projects, but because of doubt of really making it, I stopped halfway through. I often ask myself, it is really that simple? Why aren't everyone getting the results they need if it is really that simple?

    The answer is simply lack of clarity. Most people are addicted. Not only of PMO, Not only of Chemicals. But of social media, television, junk food, and the worst of all, thoughts. We need a clear mind to set up goals and go about achieving them. If distracted by these addictions, we can easily sway from the right path. This is why I meditate several times a day. I am off social media. I write and reflect here every night. But I need to go to sleep right now lol, I shall see you victorious tomorrow!
    :)
     
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  2. Sami77

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    Keep it going champ:)
     
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  3. Sed

    Sed Fapstronaut

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    Tonight, I complete 10 full Days!

    I am so happy but more importantly, I feel that my life has a meaning which I did not feel in quite sometime.

    I shall see you victorious tomorrow Gentlemen!
     
  4. Congratz bro! Next milestone is 14 days ;) Keep going
     
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  5. Sed

    Sed Fapstronaut

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    Greetings Gentlemen,

    Eleventh Day by now. I have faced few challenges today. Simply because I was watching a TV show that had some hot ladies in it. However, I was carefully watching my thoughts. it is very easy to give yourselves reasons when you are aroused. The most important thing is I must keep my attention that I do not need PMO. It is not a necessity. But rather an addiction.

    I will see you tomorrow gentlemen!
     
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  6. Sed

    Sed Fapstronaut

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    Greetings Gentlemen,

    Tonight I complete the 12th day of NoFap. Unfortunately, I have been hit by really strong headaches. The entire day it was hard to concentrate. I did not feel like doing anything. Even doing easy things like watching a TV show or just reading. The only thing that felt convenient was to fap. It felt more of a need than a pleasure. It just shows how much of a need PMO has become in my life.

    Unfortunately, it is an escape mechanism that I have used for a long period of time. It won't go away easily. Even though my convictions about PMO harms are stronger than ever, I still feel I could give in to it at any moment. I, however, will continue the fight. Until I am in full control of my mind and body.

    Gentlemen, I shall see you victorious tomorrow!
     
  7. Sed

    Sed Fapstronaut

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    I relapsed,
    Not once, but three times. I cannot even describe the way I feel. I really thought I had it this time. I apologize if I disappoint anyone who has been following this thread. I really wish I never watched porn ever. I do not know what is wrong. One moment I feel strong convictions about PMO being really bad, and another I feel like it is not that bad, and taking few glimpses on porn stars will not hurt that much. The withdrawal symptoms were very real starting the tenth day and slowly I started allowing sexual thoughts. Three days after, happened what happened.

    However, I will come back and restore my streak and go even further.
     
  8. Sed

    Sed Fapstronaut

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    Greetings Everyone,

    I am back at this. I am back at square one with my goal of reaching 7 days.

    I apologize if I disappointed anyone following the thread. After I relapsed, I received private messages about people asking how I am doing. I really appreciate every bit of that as it puts way more pressure on me to go through with this. I will post an evening post in which I describe how I relapsed. It is important to know so I do not do it again.

    see you, gentlemen! & really thank you for your amazing support
     

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