Nofap really fucked me up i cant believe wtf i was doing

The people here don’t tell you this because I think you’re the only person this has happened to...

 

Maybe your gay? Not the end of the world just be honest with yourself

 

You're the first person I've seen say they developed HOCD after starting nofap though. Not fapping isn't going to turn you gay, take a step back and back and think how ridiculous that sounds.

That's supposed to happen, it's called the flatline. Your brain is taking a much needed break having been bombarded with sexual stimuli for years.

 

This

 

THIS ^^^^^

 

Hey I had that too . Its called HOCD . Its a normal thing so basically what is is that you feel kind of atracted to the same gender well that's just your brain making up an excuse to get some dopamine you're not gay if you were gay you would've known that a long time ago here you go this video assured that Im fine good luck man

 

Well, that is a HOCD. I know because I had it, sort of. Having thoughts means nothing. I can have thoughts about becoming the next POTUS, it won't mean a thing. Nofap doesn't cause this. You cause this to yourself by treating your brain farts that seriously.

 

That's your brain literally tricking you in ways just to have some dopamine. Don't give up. If you're Gay, you would've known long ago. And there is nothing wrong in being Gay. Gay is normal. It's just another sexual preference, not a disorder.

 

Just because someone is gay doesn't make them less of a man. Their sexual preference is different and nothing wrong with that.

 

Equating "gay thoughts" with "fucked up completely" is a bit over the top. Please think about being more considerate to people of other sexualities.

But hey, man, I can understand it frightens you. But maybe it's just a temporary step on the journey. Nothing really "turns" you gay. It's just thoughts, that's all. I'm sure you'll come out the other end loving women just the same, if that's what you're into.

Peace and strength to you.

 

You are the first person that I ever read and laughed about on this forum.

 

So this HOCD does it ever really go away ?

 

Same with some of the commenters. Never even heard of such things.
BUT
I have heard and experienced something vaguely connected problem.
After a long streak there are some days when cravings come back really hard. On those days fetishes just break loose for me. (Actually I heard the same problem on a youtube video) And Thus, if you can't fight those of, you may end up relapsing to a more risky material than you started with and wanted to avoid.
Since there are some guys here with femdom, sissy and a bunch of non manly fetishes and aproaches to sex, I think maybe this is connected.
What I suggest is, to AVOID any sexual thoughts and everything connected to it. You are on a therapy right now, you don't want to get addicted to tobacco while recovering from alcohol. Also your body itself cannot turn you something you are not. Maybe strong hormone therapy and such things could (for a short period of time most likely) .
Lose focus on sex, avoid it, get involved in anything that is productive. Get a healthier approache on your life. And if it turns out you are gay, (which some people realise late, but nothing can change it) thats not the end of the world either.

 

I can definitely attest to the fact that during the heaviest urges in a streak, just before a possible relapse, fantasies go freaking wild. And fetishes become stronger, stranger and deeper everytime you give in to a relapse..

 

I think this is an issue, that not gets as much attention, and possible ways of solution that it deserves. Most people quit because of an unfortunate relapse. And those people exit on a low point. I wouldn't be surprised if something similar happened here too.

 

Please, could you be more specific? Right now there are so many emotions, I can't help you because of that. As I understood, you are now in the second streak? What is the difference between these two? What you are doing right now different than at 3 months streak beginning?

It is interesting that with this streak I have right now in 4-6 days I too had something I never had before and that really scared me, I really too wanted to relapse just to ... In those days I started to use the internet only before going to sleep, banned YT, social media and other things which doesn't give me anything good... So I guess in my situation "evil brains" just tried to scare me that I could relapse in my old porn and be afraid of some kind of OCD. It was OCD I didn't had, it was REALLY EMBARASSING. But after 2-3 days these weird things disappeared. You need to write more facts that we could analyze it together. Understand, it is not nofap fault, it could be the only catalyst of process.

I really encourage you to try to understand your feelings and analyze your situation with facts, find differences. There could be origin of your problem.

 

don't worry. you're not gay, it's just that the body is trying everything just to satisfy your sexual needs, maybe just try to restrain from porn first. Or best just get a gf and you should be fine.