Don't let me fall

It's not your last try. There is no first or last. You just keep trying. No one can babysit you, but we are here to offer support. I hope today went well for you.

 

Brother - first of all thank you for sharing; it takes great courage and strength to reach out in a situation of weakness.

And the good thing is, one always finds help when reaching out for it. The truth is: this is hard, and, ultimately, you're on your own. In those dark hours, it's you against that insidious voice inside your brain. But you can prepare for it - fill your life with life, with content, growth. And don't be hard on yourself - it is not a binary thing (addicted / sober). Rather, it is a process.

Just start stringing days together and grow. At first it might be just one day PMO free vs 4 with PMO but ever so slowly the ratio starts to change. And the good days take over - starting a virtuous cycle where you want more growth, more clarity, you just outgrow that old you. And every day you wait, your brain heals a little more.

So just hang in there, be kind and patient with yourself and keep up the good fight!

 

It happens bro, one thing that helps me is to keep the bigger image in mind. Keep your dreams and purpose in mind, so whenever you feel you are vulnerable remind yourself of those things and if you relapse, you dream is going to be delayed or compromised.

 

I am sure you can make it since you what it.