Physical Healing (need affirmation)

Hello I'm 21 y.o (male lol) and started this nofap thing for the very practical reason of healing my penis which i have simply beat too raw over the years. I'm on day 5 and today i started getting morning wood again already, i felt some urges but never close to relaspe as im very scared about the health of my penis. I really need to hear from someone that if i just leave it alone it will heal. It's looking better after just a couple days, but I still don't know if I should be seeing a doctor since i've let it be in this sorry state for so long, and to rule out any infection. There's even a little pain from all the years of repeated damage without any breaks. My gut tells me that everything will heal on its own, but i just need affirmation i think. I don't know how i could have put off something so important for so many years, this is a problem i have had since i was 14 or 15, and now i am 21, I really hope to god that my penis can return to normal.

Really I just need someone to tell me that their cock healed on its own from a sorry state through abstinence.

 

Sorry for not being specific

It is a little sore and the (urethral?) opening is a slightly different color than the head and a little shiny. My foreskin is also a little bit inflamed (uncircumcised) but much of that has subsided. The main thing is just I think I've caused a lot of mechanical damage over the years and I couldn't fully realize it until I went a couple days without O.


I feel sick that I let it get to this point and it has probably been like this for a years or 2. I have already seen a little improvement, but that discoloration concerns me. I think I will go to a doctor after a few more days. The only reason I didn't immediately go is because my gut tells me most of this is due to years of beating my meat raw 3-6 times a day. My concern with going to a doctor is that I've heard stories where they rule out infection but don't solve the problem b.c they dont believe masturbation can cause these things, and I've read nofap stories that claim to have fixed similar symptoms. I feel like it is a friction/mechanical tension issue, and hope that it can be healed. I don't know why I did this to myself for so long I feel horrible, I hope my body can recover itself. Again it is only day 5 and i have seen good improvements but I'm not sure how fast these things are supposed to heal. I think I will go to a doctor if I don't feel substantial (physical) results in a week.

SRY for those who don't have experience in this must be fucking disgusting to read sorry. I just hope everything heals and i can treat my penis properly for the rest of my life, no more abuse

 

I know if I have any concerns I should just see a doctor, but it's not so simple in this time of corona (esp living with my elderly mother). After a measly 5 days I have seen great visual improvements but my guy down there is still a little sore. I just get worried when I read stuff about scar tissue and wonder if by resting my penis im finally allowing the scar tissue from yrs of abuse to form, but that's a question for a doctor I guess. I'm praying that since im 21 my body will recover (as it has from past addictions, which i have not relasped on in yrs) so long as I never abuse my penis ever again in my life, which is something i dont think i will struggle with.

I think I'm going to have to compromise a bit on your suggestion and say that if I have any doubt about my dick's recovery by day 14 then I will make an appointment. The only reason I can be this lax is cause visually i have seen great improvements, its just there is soreness that concerns me. The bit of abject good news is that i definitely didnt even consider masturbating today, even tho/and I woke up with a raging morning wood. So it seems like things should recover with time. I really hope that this is all on me: so long as that I don't hurt myself anymore I will heal.

I swing back and forth between thinking ive fucked up forever (usually after reading some online horror stories about older individuals peyronie's/strictures and shit) to thinking everything will be fine i just need to never go down that road again. I know i shouldnt be this selfish but i really hope to god everything heals on its own. I hope in 60-90 days time i can post a success story about how my penis healed.
Thank u for replying bro.