Over two months so far

I'm more of a lurker than a poster. I just wanted to say that it's been over two months so far with me avoiding PMO. I have started getting morning wood again, which I didn't get for quite some time during all of this. Also, it seems my body is finally returning to its more natural state. I was actually very lustful yesterday, and it just came out of nowhere. I fought it off as much as I could. Usually I've been pretty dead (I guess that's part of the flatlining).

Avoiding PMO has allowed me to grow intellectually as well as physically. I'm doing more exercising nearly everyday. I'm also reading more, and praying more. This has been so good for me! And I think it's been good for those around me, because I've tried to reach out to them more.

I will say that I've had to deal with a lot of loneliness. It's been hard because I want more guy friends, and I don't seem to have any in my life right now. There are some people I talk to online and such, but I still feel I need that human element. I am hoping that with time that will improve as well. Loneliness was of course one of the reasons I became so addicted to PMO. It served as a false replacement. I don't want that anymore. I want people I can count on, and they can count on me too.

Anyways by the end of May it will be 90 days. I'll be really happy when that happens. Then I plan to keep going and not stopping.

 

Thanks guys for the kind words, as well as the advice!