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Discussion in 'Rebooting in a Relationship' started by seeking change, May 8, 2020.

  1. seeking change

    seeking change Fapstronaut

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    I'm new to nofap. This really has been my last resort. Seeking help and change in life.

    I have a severe case of porn addiction. It's messed up my life terribly. I am 30 years old have been married for 3 years. But I have bad addiction. Since the age of 13 , I have been watching porn. It stated with small sex scenes and other video sites. But then I started watching porn. Started with normal oral, piv, lesbian, etc. But then that got boring to me for some reason. I saw a few scenes of female being the dominant and it really turned me on. So then I started extreme porn like femdom and ballbusting. And it's messed up my brain completely. I still watch regular porn and scenes sometimes. But they don't arouse me as much as femdom.

    My biggest problem is I have erectile dysfunction. I have to use blue pills but that doesn't work that much. And I never ejaculate during sex. Even when we have sex I have to imagine scenes or actresses etc. Or watch something before. I feel bad coz we can't have sex due to my problem. I feel guilty also as I stay late at night sometime while my wife sleeps. One good thing is recently I have reduced porn a lot due to my problem. But then I have to watch something on YouTube. It starts normally with scenes or songs on YouTube but then it goes to femdom ballbusting scenes on YouTube. But then like a drug I watch porn again :( . And then the cycle repeats. I never have problem getting erection while watching. Ballbusting and femdom porn makes me rock hard. But when we have regular sex it doesn't work. I have been working around with foreplay, oral etc to please my wife but I feel really bad :( We knew about my erectile dysfunction before as well and somehow have managed sex life by other things. Seen doctor who prescribed blue pills and urologist. Some say it's physical some say it's mental. I am skeptical to see therapist. Deep down I feel my problem is porn :(

    Anyways, I am really helpless right now. And a severe porn and masturbation addict. Can't sleep without masturbation. Wife gives me handjobs sometimes to sleep too. If any one has any advice that would be great. Trying to not masturbate at all but it's almost impossible for me. Can't even go 2-3 days without masturbating. This has affected my career and marriage as well. So I have to make changes now. If any one has any suggestions please let me know
     
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  3. seeking change

    seeking change Fapstronaut

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    Thanks I will go through the links. And go through the support groups and appropriate forums :)
     
  4. With this mentality, you will stay helpless for sure. Bro, you've took the decision to register on this site so it means that you want to change. You aren't that helpless after all. It's time to get serious about your life now. It's time to break free from this poison and live the life you truly deserve my friend. We will be there if you need help. We are all fighting the same beast, and we will win at the end. Let's do this. I believe in you, so give everything you have. ;)

    YOU WILL SUCCEED. YOU MUST SUCCEED.
     
  5. seeking change

    seeking change Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for your encouragement. Yes I want to get serious in life and get rid of this poison. That's why I joined this site. Yes we will do everything to succeed :)
     
  6. seeking change

    seeking change Fapstronaut

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    New to nofap forums. Porn has badly affected my life and marriage. So I have come here for help. I am a 30 year old male. Been married for close to 3 years.
     
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    seeking change Fapstronaut

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    I was curious to know. How many members are there in nofap ?
     
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  10. | Nico |

    | Nico | Distinguished Fapstronaut
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    Welcome to the community :) there are almost 300,000 members on nofap.
     
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    seeking change Fapstronaut

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    Awesome. Thanks :)
     
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  12. | Nico |

    | Nico | Distinguished Fapstronaut
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    Anything we can assist you with just let us know :)
     
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  13. Welcome among us my friend. ;)

    YOU WILL SUCCEED. YOU MUST SUCCEED.
     
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  14. Hi. I can really relate to your situation only a bit. Everything that it is needed to defeat your urges will be said in other places there (meditation, a cold shower, training, walking, running, TRYING to be positive, even swearing or trying some supplements which could increase serotonin). But in this case there are no panacea. More tools - more you will become stronger. Especially I would advise you to fight other addictions because it seems that you are addicted to YouTube (like I was). You should question yourself why you need this garbage. Good luck my friend!
     
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    I have found the perfect way for anyone struggling with addiction to any variation of femdom videos and is wanting to make a change.

    When doing this you may find yourself in a position to be triggered to m but this is about overcoming that using will power.
    If you feel like you can not watch a femdom video without m then start small something small and work your way up to what turns you on the most. For example you could start with femdom videos that are very poorly acted. You’ll see when you read the instructions.
    •firstly I started with a video that made me relapse it was a femdom related office instruction video, now she tried her best to humiliate me verbally but every time she’d insult me I’d throw an insult right back at her and you’ll find she becomes less attractive and dominant when you make fun of their act.
    For example she way saying something like you have a small penis and I would say in my head or out loud you wouldn’t be saying that if my dick was in your mouth, you’d shut your bratty mouth up then. It realised to me that as I broke down her act to seduce me it wasn’t that enticing and dominant it was really a pathetic performance of bullying. From this I could build it up towards more enticing femdom videos with a real good Dom in it.
    Please try this and reply with the feedback on how it helped it isn’t long term recovery imo but I think it will help if your watching one of them videos and wanted to pmo
    stay strong brothers
    123Dele
     
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    Thanks. I will look into the other solutions as well. Like meditation and exercising. I think what you said about trying to stay positive is really true. Coz you think before that you can't do it beforehand. And then it doesn't work. Same case with my erection problem and porn addiction.( Or YouTube right now as substitute of porn). I think this addiction has increased a lot since wfh. Few months back I was going to gym and all. Was seeing some improvement. But now I m back to same habits since wfh. I have never heard about the serotonin supplement. Will check it out.
    Really trying to get rid of all these addictions !
    Thanks a lot for your advice bro:)
     
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    This is a different way of approaching femdom addiction. I will try it out. I have seen that femdom really gets into your psyche. And then you start fantasizing about such things and m. And then you feel bad if you succumb to the temptation. Normal sex doesn't feel that great after watching femdom videos. But like you said I can start something small first like less attractive and then go my way up. Making fun might help to as that way I don't feel all that enticed then. That way I can test my will power. As it's all about trying to control yourself. Thanks bro :)
     
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