Fetish withdrawals

So guys I'm a 30 year old male, I have been diagnosed with a fetishized disorder where the urges of my fetish are so strong that if I see the item of the fetish on anyone I get strong arousal. This caused me to have HOCD for 4 years making me strongly believe that I was gay despite not being able to ejaculate to males. Since speaking to a psychologist and slowly trying to withdraw from this fetish I have of hands and feet with nicely done nails it's been very hard. I have had very strong sexual urges however I relapse after 3 days. During those three days I noticed my sexual drive towards women has increased and is much easier to masturbate to the thought of women. However while not focusing on my current hand and foot fetish my mind has all of a sudden drifted to the thought of cross dressing and been having very strong urges to do so. I have never had a history of this before and it's a first for me and is very odd.

Due to these urges I attempted to wear women's clothing with heels and women's underwear on more than one occassion along with a full face of makeup to my interest I was actually quite disgusted by this. However one day I had really massive urgers and eventually now have been able to get off to the thoughts of wearing women's high heels, which I think is linking to my foot fetish.

However what I want to ask is the following have I developed a fetish that I never knew about, or is it my mind playing tricks on me since I'm trying hard not to get off to my usual fetish

Please help in massive distress

 

Okay that's very interesting indeed, cause the fetish for hands and feet is mainly getting mine done which is part of it, and now I have the urges to cross dress which is causing the dopamine rushes and crazy urges. As there is times where I try it and nothing happens but now it's more often than anything and will easily ejaculate when wearing heels and thinking about it. Which is something I've never had happen to me before

So it's just part of my brain tricking me back into my foot fetish ???

 

Okay but what I'm saying is now that I've tried stopping to this fetish of acrylic nails and painted nails etc, I have obtained a cross dressing fetish all of a sudden. For example if I read about it, dress up in heels, talk about it on random sites knowing it's a girl that's when the dopamine rushes have occured, this is something I've never had before and it's scary cause the first couple of times I attempted to masturbate to this stuff it didn't interest me then for some reason during the testing I all of a sudden was able to get off to these thoughts and it's only gotten stronger

Which makes me think I've had a whole cross dressing fetish for heels my whole life and I've never noticed

 

I completely understand where you're coming from, when you attempted to stop wanking to your fetish, did your brain try and trick you into thinking you had other fetishes and getting stimulated by things you normally wouldn't find arousing cause that's whats going on with me. Example is wearing women's heels and wanking to that thought of having the heels on , which is something I've never experienced to be arousing before in my life
Thanks

 

I feel like the fetish of wearing heels and women's clothes links back to the original fetish of getting my nails done tbh and looking at picture of acrylic nails and feet. Hence why now all of a sudden I am randomly.getting stimulated by wearing heels etc, cause the first couple of times I tried I didn't find it arousing but me the idiot kept trying until I eventually got stimulated and it's only gotten deeper and deeper each time making the dopamine rushes quicker then before. So you are all saying just stop wanking to this type of stuff to eventually get over it considering it's not my actual fetish ?

 

Yeah so I gotta stop endulging to the fetishes, although when I stop focusing on my own fetish other fetishes arise and I get real crazy stimulation, do I just ignore them completely or if I do masturbate it's to the imagination of a female ?

 

But what I'm asking you is the following, when you stopped indulging in your fetish, were you getting withdrawals and were getting urges and arousal to things that you've never been interested before due to your brain searching for more extreme things to get aroused from. As a result of trying to steer away from the fetish ?

 

But it didn't happen at the start either cause for the first week that I stopped indulging in the fetish the cross dressing withdrawals occured and that was the next thing I could fap too, but it was weird cause half the times I could do it and the other times it did nothing for me. So it was more so my mind play tricks.

Also when you stopped did you sex drive increase drastically for women cause that's what happened to me and that was only 4 days with trying

 

Okay so that's perfectly normal and you're gonna flat line now, cause I remember in my teens literally I'd hug a girl and id get an instant boner like it's crazy, but yes I'll stop fapping now. If my mind tries to trick me and give me weird as fuck urges I'll let you all know but please try help me through this
Thanks

 

Yeah that's so crazy, like I remember when I was younger I'd hug a girl and instant boner, like with my first girlfriend I'd hi early just see her car or be with her the whole day and be fully erected. Now times have changed and my.sex drive is cooked cause I've been trying to wank to cross dressers and gay makeup artists to test myself then switch to women, which has definately caused this issue.
Put yes I must put a stop to this

 

Also guys serious question, due to having the HOCD from my fetish, whenever I see a gay person on Instagram etc my thought will instantly go to either my nail fetish or females, like I could see a girl liked the post and then bam once I noticed the girl I'll get aroused, is that just hyper stimulation that's occuring from looking at guys then changing my thoughts to females.during masturbation ???.