Boring,depressed,no motivate to do anything.

despite your short brief post without any contexts, I can say that I can totally relate to this sentence that you typed, alot of times we feel this lack of motivation, and I won't try to convince you that life is meaningful and you should always stay positive. However, contrary to this, I highly suggest you be easy, pose questions to yourself, why are you here, what are you doing, and why exactly have you decided to change. Your past, is full of experiences and memories that should be used to propel you forward and to better understand yourself. Take time to think and ponder, then start with easy stuff, waking up early if you could, healthy eating, exercising if you have time and energy, do a little more every day and you will find your life improving substantially with time, if you would like to speak more, I 'd be happy to help.

 

also if you are feeling that you have been depressed for along time, it might be an excellent idea to get in touch with a psychiatrist or a psychologist, try to find an online clinical service due to this lock-down conditions. Your mental health is a priority and you should always seek help if you think you're not alright. I hope for you to find meaning and joy in what you do and I wish for you long term recovery from porn addiction. Be safe, brother.

 

amazing work brother, remember the first few days are the hardest. I always used to fail during my 4th or 5th day consequently but as you manage to endure the suffering of resisting the urges during those first few days, believe me you'll gain strength to build a discipline. Having an accountability partner did really make it easy on me. I told a family member about the whole story and that it is an addiction, where the urges are mostly non-sexual due to stress and anxiety and I'll try to deal with it as a disease accordingly. Because believe me it is way more than just a habit, there are remarkable brain changes. I also used to look backwards thinking of all the time I have wasted and the skills I could have learned, people I could have known and relationships I might have gone into, but actually this mentality is not healthy and will generate nothing but shame and self-doubt. Try to construct a good self-image of yourself, remember your best moments, the strength points in your character, everyone of us has something special, even in our most pathetic days. We just get blinded by our shortcomings and relapses in life so we don't see it. Last of all, give yourself time, don't rush things out, don't get busy ready other's success stories thinking when will I be like them, you may feel disappointed because each one of us has different progress according to the extent of the addiction, our mental status and our character and circumstances. Try to search for the resources within your reach, how can you make good use of it and achieve something great. It may take a month, it may take a year or even more but most importantly is to keep going and fail forward. If you are religious, take time and pray calmly and peacefully, asking god guidance and patience to keep on with life's hardship. If you're not, try to find a meaning and purpose in your life, believe in something that is greater than you. Unfortunately, having to go with all those years of self-tormenting and doubting ourselves we become more self-centered we stop realizing that we are just a small component of this universe, a part of a bigger system, we need to start realizing beauty in our lives, in our surroundings and environment and in people around us. As a religious Muslim, I am going to pray to my lord and ask him to guide you to the right path, one that is full of meaning and purpose, and provide you the power and strength to control your urges and desires and live a peaceful, calm life and find a kind person to love and live your life with. Amen, blessings.