Weird symptom, any encouragement (trigger warning?)

So in the past 13 days, I have only pmo'd once(I binged). I have also mo'd (my goal is to only mo from now on) 3 times during that time period as well.

I was peaking earlier today due to a weird thing that is happening to me right now. Basically, my sensitivity is unbelievable. My glans is extremely sensitive, sitting flaccid in my pants now it is super tingly just touching my boxers.

Earlier today I was peaking due to the unbearable urge and sensitivity. I didn't want to touch myself, so I tried to pmo without using my hands(just flexing muscles down there I guess) and thankfully I failed. I have gotten hard twice earlier today and penis looked healthy then (filling up and full). After trying (and deciding to stop) to pmo without using my hands (i lightly dry rubbed with my fingertips before than for about 30 seconds at the beginning), when my penis is getting hard now it takes on a severe hourglass shape. Before, I would only see this before if I binged for a several days in a row (and even then it was rare). Also depends on how quickly I get hard (longer time to fill up more defined hourglass shape). Anyways, when my erection is full, it is a normal cylindrical shape. What the heck is this? Don't tell me to go see a urologist, with carona and my personal finances, it is not an option...

I have only pmo'd 4 times in the past 24 days. This was unimaginable to me before...I am taking this seriously and want to heal the bruising and collapsed veins on my member, but what is this symptom? Feeling and sensitivity is coming back but this is weird....

 

You're totally right, thanks. I'm just wondering if this is normal, the feeling come back like this and the shape...