No hope left none at all, all gone

Hey man I know this sounds cheesy but hang in there. I've also been relapsing constantly for the past 5 years and my life has been ruined for the past 10 years because of this, and I just relapsed twice again today but we have to try and learn from each mistake. I pray you and I make it through this as well as every other person suffering from this addiction.

 

I really hope this won't get across as mean, far from my intention, but maybe you have no one else to tell you this, and this is a thought that helped me.

Get a grip, get back on your feet, and don't accept being a victim in your own head.

I suggest you start defying your condition, whether you see hope or not, at least defy it, because deep down you are still YOU, the real you that knows he is better; even if you would feel like a prisoner in a jail cell, at least defy your jailers : )

Try not to let bad emotions pile up, from the news + from failing + health problems etc...
They are not connected, and they are not permanent.

I really hope you start getting some hope back, we are all suffering from different circumstances but we should keep on fighting.
Best wishes to you.

 

Keep fighting the good fight! It's always easy to throw in the towel and indulge but we all know that deep down that's not what makes us happy. Freedom from this enslavement is going to have it's it's challenges, if it was easy no one would be addicted - yet here we all are as a community. Stay strong.

 

Be strong and say no to your defeat. Refuse to accept this present condition, keep fighting and you will surely be victorious.

 

Hey, I know the feeling. I’ve Ben there. I’ve been addicted to porn for over half my life. I kept thinking something would make me stop. Getting married? Didn’t do it. Having a kid? Didn’t do it. Having another kid? Nope. Working at a kids camp with huge responsibilities and tons of people looking up to me and expecting great things from me? Nope. PMOing at work? Nope. PMOing in a work computer? Nope. (And that’s after my brother lost his job after getting caught PMOing at work, which I knew about)
but I still haven’t given up. I’ve finally taken it more seriously. I’ve realized that porn is a coping mechanism for me and I use it when I’m feeling down or disappointed or whatever. The thing is it sucks as a coping mechanism! It doesn’t actually help, it just makes you weaker and more selfish. how serious are you about quitting? Have you installed filters on your electronics? Have you given someone else the password on your phone so you can’t make changes and just look at porn whenever you want? (You don’t have to tell them why to do this). So you have physical people in your life you can talk to about this? Have you considered going to a Sex Addicts Anonymous meeting? Have you considered seeing a counselor?
Think about it. I also was in a place where I felt like “I just can’t stop!” But there was a world of things I hadn’t tried yet. And there probably isn’t going to be a “just one thing” that works. It’s probably going to be everything together. But don’t give up. That’s the biggest thing. How badly do you want it? Seriously, what are you willing to do to stop looking at porn? Don’t be discouraged, I looked over your recent posts- you hit a high streak just a month ago. Way to go! Now get back on your horse and do it again.

 

People taking some different ways of encouraging you here Codename47. They're all valuable. Here's just my thoughts on feeling low in particular. since it sounds like you're going through a rough time.

You've heard all the advice before, but I just want you to know that people care about you and this platform is here for you. I too felt absolutely shit today, fell into a place I haven't been in a while. I know how you feel. I've been at the edge before, feeling like I can't take this life.

All I can say is sometimes we're in pain and that's just the way it is. When we fight it, or try to solve it mentally, we sometimes make it worse. Try to recognise what is in your control. I have the same phrase I tell myself when I feel overwhelmed by the pandemic- that it's out of my control. That's not to say I don't feel sympathy for those who suffer, but just that there's nothing is gained from feeling inner-turmoil and fear over it. I can't control it. It sucks, it's fucking cruel, but it will pass. Everything does. Everything.

So what CAN you control? Rather a lot thankfully. For instance, what makes you feel a little better? If the internet ovewhelms you (it really does for me sometimes), step away, turn off your electronics. Take a deep breath. Maybe tidy your room.

What small things give you joy? Can you call a family member or a friend for a chat? Is there an easygoing TV show that reliably gives you joy? I love sitcoms personally, they are great consolers to me. Maybe curl up with a blanket and watch an old episode of something you enjoy.

Maybe a shower makes you feel better, and getting into a nice clean set of clothes/pyjamas. Whatever works for you.

People love you my dude. And if you feel like no-one does now, then they certainly will.

Being human is tough. Damn tough. But no matter the internal darkness we might feel, as humans, we've got eachother. It's cringeworthy, you've heard it before. But it's true. You're not alone friend. This too will pass.

Get yourself a good nights sleep if you can (turn your phone off and put it outside your room/ on the other side of your room!), it pays dividends. Tomorrow's a new day. Hang in there, you got this.

 

Yeah, many of us been there. I even had some crazy dreams about cutting my balls off, it felt like my balls are somehow not a part of my body.
But everything pass. Greeks would say panta rei.
It will get better, take one step after another. This time it was 2 days. Next time try to achieve 3 days. Then try to consistenly have 3 days streaks and sometimes 4-5 days. Soon, you'll be getting more and more and you will be on the road to racovery. Then you will be even more motivated and everything will be easier. Not just the nofap - everything.