NoFap 90 day challenge

Hey guys, so I had constant HOCD causing me huge anxiety and distress throughout a 4 year period in my life which had been caused from a nail fetish I've had as a little kid. After going to a psychologist I was diagnosed with a feitsh disorder due to my nail fetish. The whole OCD began when I saw a male makeup artist who was wearing acrylic nails, when I noticed the nails I got an instant erection this cause me to drastically question my sexuality on a constant basis and watch explicit imagery or gay people with nails to see if I'd get an erection when looking at there nails and caused me to also watch gay porn. When speaking to my psychologist she told me to not go cold turkey on masturbating but instead try not to masturbate to my fetish. I followed her advice however the following happened I went through drastic withdrawals and started having urges of cross dressing which has made me heavily aroused due to not focusing on my fetish which at one point was causing me to constantly try wearing women's clothing and make up and try get off to it. Which eventually happened on the 5th attempt after I wore high top wedged women's heels and a dress. After this I decided that enough was enough and I should try go cold turkey for 90 days to see how I'd cope. So far this is my current situation.

The current progress of my journey is this, so the first 3 days I felt very down and depleted and had the constant urge to masturbate to females and play with myself. However I resisted the urge, but due to my anxiety I would still look at images of gay makeup artists with acrylic nails, to my surprise during day three the reactions had started dropping when noticing the nails on the makeup artists, and my thought of just females has become increased. I was surprised and as the days go by my reactions to the gay makeup artists have become less and less for me and the false erections have drastically come to a point where they don't exist anymore. The urges of cross dressing also dropped drastically as they are almost inexistent at the moment.

Fast forward and currently I'm on day 8 so far I have noticed the following. I am full of energy and even my body is feeling abit more masculine now, my brain and thoughts are much more clearer, I currently don't get any anxiety or false arousal to gay make up artists with acrylic nails either. So far everything has been a positive for me I will eventually reach the goal of going 90 days without touching myself I will keep you guys updated.

Please comment and let me know how your journey has gone and wether any weird fetishes had dissapeared when you started the 90 day challenge.

 

I was getting the tingling at the start and then the arousal but whenever I'd try masturbating to the individual it would never reach climax but unless I focused on the painted nails. But just looking or noticing the nails there is what would get my crazily aroused. As for now though I am going strong and I still keep looking at that imagery in disbelieve cause I'm not getting any reactions mainly very minimal movement which is making me realise this all occured due to constant fapping from my nail fetish. Btw how were you during your first week anyway did you notice the tingling and all that going away or did it take a while for you my friend ?

 

Did any of you guys experience flat lining at all after about a two week period or you didn't cop the flat lining at all ???

 

Okay and whats the flat lining like have you noticed a drastic change in your mood etc ?

 

Okay currently on day 12 without masturbating and so far I feel absolutely great by this ybh, my reactions to gay people with acrylic nails has dropped seastically. around what day should I start having flat lining BV

 

Okay do after 12 days I ended up relapsing, to one of the girls I know after she told me she'd do my nails for me. When I did I somehow tried to switch my attention to the gay makeup artists and to my response I remained soft. It was much easier to ejaculate to the thought of a female for me aswell this time and I didn't have any issues at all. I am starting my journey again today this time not viewing nothing at all, as the other time I was still looking at guys with acrylic nails to see if I'd get responses so technically it didn't help my cause. Now I'm going completely cold turkey on this. I will keep you guys definately updated

 

Although I definately did notice a decrease in the triggers for my OCD during this journey, however now I'm having the constant urge to check to the makeup artists again cause I'm not to sure about it, despite knowing that there was no stimulation at all to it just some pre cum as well as the fact of not actually being able to get it up to them. I will keep you guys update on my journey

 

I know where you coming from but at the same time this relapse made me realise one thing and that was that my arousal to guys with acrylic nails has pretty much dissapeared so it has given me some satisfaction and clarity to know that I'm definately straight which does relieve me. However due to experimenting to that stuff last night I've now got the urge to constantly test which I'm most definately trying to resist from doing cause I know there no arousal at all from it and it will lead to a downhill spiral which I'm not going to fall into.
In regards to this, my mind has been going absolutely crazy today and when I get these urges it feel like my mind is overthinking and my whole brain is just tingling, until I eventually experiment I guess. But I will definately try to ignore this completely on the upside though my arousal towards women has increased and I can finally reach orgasim with out having to look or think about there nails.

Also do you guys have any techniques or advice I can use in order to try and prevent myself from slipping cause last night the urge was just to unbearable and it was driving me nuts

 

yeah that is very true, and once relapsing I noticed the brain is trying to trick me a little bit though, for example like I came across a post the other day where it looked like a nice women but was a trans noticed I started getting a erection, but then when I see them.naked there's no stimulation at all. Then checked the same person the next day and there was no stimulation. It's as if the OCD is trying to get me back in one way or another. But now I know exactly how it works so I'm not stressed or anxious which is a relief. Has this happened to any of you guys aswell ???