I feel really lonely right now. (Any help appreciated)

No need mate - use what you have to your advantage- get in the gym and beast it mate!! You're only young mate I'm 30 and still working stuff out & have a long way to go. COVID has caused a lot of problems other than the obvious disease risk; isolation, lack of engagement etc. Give it time mate it will improve but keep busy.

 

Hey mate,

Keep working on yourself, this is the best thing to do. While other people are losing their time doing useless things they will regret after a while (partying, wasting sexual energy, eating trash), you are improving your body mind and spirit and building a better self. Women will come naturally as they will sense you are a high-value man with discipline and consistency, not a blue-pilled lambda fool. Don't isolate yourself from others but don't seek approval and constant social contact neither.
I know that's hard as you are young and social pressure is omnipresent you want to do what others do but the work you are going through nowadays will determine your future being. If only I was as wise as you at your age man, I will have avoided many many problems.
Congrats for your weight loss, keep exercising, eat well, sleep well, work on your purpose, retain your seed, stay away from porn, and slowly you'll see the world changing around you for the better, you'll attract good things naturally and working on yourself will no longer be an effort but a pleasure.

Try not to focus on past traumas and the negative self-image you've built over time by self-deception, this is an absolute illusion. You are infinitely better than what you think and your inner child is crying seeing your potential wasted by this error of assessment.

 

No women will not come naturally. They most definitely will not. Being in an all boys scholl didn'y help too much with communicating with women did it? Been there. You have to talk to women to het better at it. But I don't know how to most of the times. So I hope you find a way and share it. I really hope someone succeeds beacuse I can't and my life's a mess be cause of it. No woman caress affects my confidence phisiological and mental health.. I really wish it wasm't so.

 

Cool! A runner! I do 4km in 30 min

1. I Understand u have faced some dark stuff in high school, but mate, im sure u will be fine. Let it go..understand the addiction deeply by THINKING and READING more about..KNOW WHY U WANT TO QUIT.
2. Yes, don’t u worry, u will be in a relationship at some point. Naturally, a girl and u WILL find interest in each other...

ofc U will be!! Why do u think u wont be in a relationship??

 

You don't like you body? Keep working on improving it until you like it. To your running ad some waigth lifting, that's the only way to have muscle. Muscle give a better look for the body.
You feel that you are fucked up in your mind, work on it until you are proud of who you are.

When you get to the point when you love you and your life you will be confident in yourself and woman can't resist a confident man and it's going to be easier for you to interact with them and eventually date a few of them.

 

What a good idea to meet female friends at Uni. Corona will go away and you'll get back on track.
The fact you were forced to watch P is definitely something that harmed you. Whether you need professional help is something only you can feel.
Right now I think your biggest problem is your self-respect. You may do some serious self-talking every day. Looking in the mirror in the morning you can say for example 'I'm never going to leave you! You're an okay guy. Let's make this into a great day' and repeat this whenever you feel bad about yourself.
Being your own best friend will attract people as everyone wants to be with a guy who is okay with himself. There will undoubtedly female friends among them and maybe even a gf, who knows. It all starts with gaining respect for YOU. You're worth it.