Could you share your testimony ?

Hmm well I have been a Christian most my life, grew up in a private Christian school, but I never feel like I was an active Christian, actually I was not active in fact but I still believed, I was luke warm you could say. I grew up with my mom telling me everything would be fine and God will forgive me no matter what, and my dad believes one cannot lose his salvation and that we are predestined to be saved and go to heaven both these teachings basically in my mind gave me a license to sin, I could go on a whole rant on how wrong both of them are but I won’t. It was not till I was 19 when I started smoking pot and getting deep into pornography addiction, sissy porn really messed me up. I had an experience one night where I was staring at the clouds, when high objects tend to form into images of you focus enough, the clouds took the shape of terrified people falling into hell, in the middle was the shape of a demon throwing them, that really shook me up. I also should mention I also got deeply involved in the new age movement during this time. So what really did it for me was the feeling that I was going on the wrong path away from God, I remember yelling at my mom and sister one night and than I went to my room, I always have had anger issues and was kinda abusing towards my mom and sister. When I went to my room I started crying I was tired of how I was acting, I was tired of everything, and than I had a mental breakdown of sorts which started my dark night of the soul, It was a week of pure emptiness and sorrow, I cried every day uncontrollably, I remember sitting at my table with my family and I just started crying, also during this time everything became meaningless to me, my prized figurines looked like worthless plastic that no longer brought me any joy, I realized than and there that everything in this world is utterly meaningless without God, than I read what Solomon wrote and I couldn’t have agreed more. So that was the event that really brought me on my knees and closer to God, that I joined boot camp a year ago and church and my bible became my only comforts there, and ever since I have been trying my best to grow in my faith, and honesty I have learned to much since than.