compulsive fap mixed with some TOC?or I don´t seem to get satisfied.

Hey I´m new on this site.I´m spanish so i hope i write good enough in order of all you can understand me.
The confinement has made damages in me.Usually i fap occasionally and i was not the one who fap 7 times per day,but at the end of april that changed a little.In recent months I have realized that i have a little TOC and it may have participated in what i am talking because i have some obsesive thoughts that last more than i would wish,especially the verification thoughts TOC.

The things is that at the end of april during 5 days i fap a lot because every time i was going to fap i thought "this is the last" but when i finished i seem to felt unsatisfied so I thought if i could do another one i would get satisfied ,but that cycle was repeating over and over again during 5 days.
Since that I nofap during 18 days and i was feeling great but one day i was tempted to see some porn and I ended fapping because I thought there would be no problem,but that fap led to 3 days of fapping.5 days passed and i relapsed thinking the same,that there would be no problem doing one,but that one has led to many more.The problem i think is that I dont get satisfied,f.e.when i fap and i end before I want I feel like that was not a good fap I and I should give another "try",but that another try feels not god enough and i end in the cycle again.Its like I never get satisfied for silly stuff.

 

hi,this thread I made can be resumed in few words,if I fap in a way that my mind doesn´t think is perfect I seem to feel unsatisfied and I end fapping again.