[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

1/90

Usually when I relapse I wait at least a few days before starting a new streak. Why? Because I tell myself "you're at zero, you may as well enjoy yourself for a few days and watch as much porn as you want. Then you can start over....tomorrow....or maybe after the weekend on Monday."

This time? I have no desire or intention of doing that. The error in that thinking is obvious (I won't explain it here but if you are struggling with that let me know and I'll share my thoughts). So, here I am already with 1 day complete. I'm not waiting until Monday to become the man I want to be. I'm doing it today.

I learned from my mistakes, I stood back up, and I'm not afraid to be on day 1 again. Day 1 of 90 isn't actually starting from scratch. I may be struggling to reach that particular milestone, but that doesn't mean that my life isn't FAR better now than it was 5 years ago when I was watching porn 3 times a day and the rest of my life was falling apart.

A huge THANK YOU to EVERYONE on here!! Thank you for your thoughts, for sharing the lessons you've learned, for your bravery and vulnerability in sharing the struggles you face, for the encouragements you've given to me personally and to others on this thread. Thank you for saying YES to being the powerful and FREE people that we are truly meant to be. Thank you for standing together against this common enemy. Your courage and bravery is a daily inspiration to keep fighting.

Thank you. Thank you! THANK YOU!!

 

I would never be so harsh to you if I wasn't mostly addressing myself at the same time. I hope you got that part too I wouldn't for a second want anyone to get the impression that I think I have the answers.

But you are an inspiration to me and perhaps every now and then I hope I can inspire you too

 

Day 4/30 No PM (June)
Day 497 at attempting this challenge
Day 177 weigh training (M, W, F)
Lifestyle: No caffeine, no alcohol and reduced desserts

 

Day 14/90

 

Oh I totally got that part! Sorry, I didn't communicate what I meant very well. I actually teared up a bit when I read what you said, not because I felt hurt but because I could sense the passion with which you believe the TRUTH that I am beautiful and awesome and I need to share it with the world. It struck such a deep chord in me that I couldn't quite articulate how I was feeling.

Instead of "harsh" I should have said "passion"! Your words were passionate. Also, I didn't feel that passion so much directed AT ME. Instead, I felt it was directed AGAINST THE LIE that I am ugly and have no value. I felt very deeply that you were fighting FOR ME and standing WITH ME when you said those words.

Don't worry, you have already inspired me many times!

 

13.

 

Happy Morning
Successfully completed Day 1
01/90
Yup will succeed with all your support.....

 

Happy Morning
Day 01/90

 

Day 4

 

Day 62 completed. Eyes on the ultimate prize: completing the 90 day challenge.

 

Day 4/90
Total clean days - 13
Total relapse - 2
Total hours remaining - 2064

Urges are hard to tackle. As I have come near to my previous streak urges are getting strong. I won't relapse and start from zero. I have relapsed 1000 times and I won't go through day 0 to 1 again. One look at porn and I will relapse so it's getting tricky now.

 

You're welcome! Mark Queppet has tons of very useful free videos on his YouTube channel. This video really hit home with me, it was posted in this thread by @bromor two weeks ago:

 

55/90

 

On day 52/90

 

1 day. Going through a rough time. Thanks for the support everyone. Keep going.

 

day 79/90... 11 more days left

 

Ending 14/90!!!

 

13 days no pmo. Had a close call last night, woke up in the middle of the night and started playing with myself without really having my bearings. Stopped after a short time and realized I’m practicing hard mode. Sometimes this leads to a bit of edging, but avoided that last night. Does anyone else have that experience in the middle of the night where you wake up and are still foggy and the mind just takes over before you get your wits about you? Anyway, didn’t feel like a reset or relapse but also worth noting and trying to avoid. Good luck everyone.

 

Awesome

 

Day 43