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Why is this happening? Sudden depression

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Digga187, Jun 8, 2020.

  1. Jun 8, 2020 #1
    Digga187

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    So ive been on nofap since more than 30 days and there have been periods where ive been feeling completely like shit out of nowhere. I would just suddenly get really fucking negative thoughts and it seemed like nothing could motivate me. I feel like im going crazy, like im out of my mind, because the things that i normally enjoy just arent interesting anymore and the only thing in my head is PMO. Why does this happen and how do i deal with it. I train every day and i eat well, i also look at pretty much every aspect of my life so that i make sure im improving myself on this journey, but i dont know what the fuck is going on in my head during this streak. First i had a loss of motivation, then came HOCD (which passed eventually), then came these depressive thoughts for a week and they went away after that, now they are coming back. I dont know if this is depression or anxiety or what kind of shit this is but its really hard since it takes my mind off of anything useful that i want to do. And also i want to mention these thoughts dont come out of nothing but they just come triggered by completely normal things. For example i read somewhere about a psychiatric clinic in the area and how some patients escaped, and now the fucking clinic has been in my head the whole day and i just cant stop thinking about that. It feels like every positive thing i hear comes in through one ear and goes out through the other, but the negative things just seem to stick in my head for days and haunt me. Its like not fapping to porn pretty much makes me really irritable and i feel like i cant stand anything during certain days. I heard somewhere this could be my brain trying to get me back to watch porn but i just dont want to do it. What should i do and how should i deal with this?
     
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  2. Jun 8, 2020 #2
    r0senr0t

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    I'm on day 49, literally came back to this site after a couple weeks looking for answers for the exact same thing you've described. Sounds like your situation is similar to mine, heres my take (have done reading from YBOP and other sources) I've had a period of great motivation, libido etc. but now I'm having mood swings everyday. I should also mention I feel like i'm reclaiming my identity back in away as if all the problems i've been escaping from in my life through porn are all rushing back and i'm slowly working through them as fearful as I am of them, its not easy but Im getting stronger, confront and journal your thoughts. I'm mostly depressed and anxious and have spikes of HOCD too when i'm feeling really low. I think were going through a heavy flatline phase, one that if we pull through, we'll be much more mentally stable, cleansed and clear-focused after. This whole journey has been rocky but right now these days are very hard. Hope is the best tool you have right now. These low points will make you stronger and remember your brain is reprogramming itself.
     
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  3. Jun 8, 2020 #3
    MrYang29

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    that your mind playing games on you. it happens because of the withdrawal symptoms you have gone through.
     
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  4. Jun 8, 2020 #4
    clearmindd

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    thats your mind forcing you to escape to porn to bleasure urself all of rebooters feel the same dont worry and even more than u
     
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  5. Jun 9, 2020 #5
    TheRetainer

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    Day 30 ish it hit me Depression mood swings Etc. Only a little but better now at day 67.

    ive read lots if accounts and it’s very common. There isn’t enough accounts talking about when how and if it ends.
     
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  6. Jun 9, 2020 #6
    sonic123rainbow

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    Sometimes wonder why people cannot just google this stuff. Google: "Withdrawal symptoms"
     
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  7. Jun 9, 2020 #7
    Digga187

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    Bruh i mean i didnt know its called that but yeah thanks for the info
     
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  8. Jun 9, 2020 #8
    sonic123rainbow

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    Sorry didn't mean to say anything bad, but maybe im just too active in this forum, idk.
    @Digga187 you are an amazing person with feelings and I think many else feel the same way!
    Thanks for being part of this forum really makes my life better. Thanks Digga.
     
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  9. Jun 10, 2020 #9
    MrAlkali

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    how did you pass HOCD, what did you do and how long did it last
     
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  10. Jun 11, 2020 #10
    sonic123rainbow

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    Try this, it's 20 minutes on meditation for focus, it's easy just sit down and do it after 20 minutes you will have so much less cravings and negative thoughts.
     
    sonic123rainbow, Jun 11, 2020
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