Lack of emotions

You're not an asshole. I'm experiencing the same effects. I know I'm only 3 days into it, but I was about 100 days of nofap several year ago. Your detachment from emotions comes from the physical strength you're building in your brain.

From a physiological standpoint, your prefrontal cortex (which is what makes you YOU) has been learning the last 35 days to inhibit neural input from your amygdala, amongst other neural centers in your limbic system. Centers like these in the brain are what drive addiction, animal behavior, and what are really ramped up and out of control in people who can't ever get a grip over themselves.

You're the opposite of an emotional cunt. Right now, you are a soldier who has been quite literally rerouting axonal input from these emotional centers by flexing the muscle of your prefrontal cortex. As a result, you probably feel less emotional, because those centers have less dictation on how you feel, or even if you "feel" at all.

The result is that you more or less just live each moment. It's a principle of Buddhism. It's why people love Yoga or practice really any form of self-control. They don't realize it, but the parts of them that say "NO!" and "I WANNA DO THIS INSTEAD" are being overridden by their prefrontal cortex. While that's great and all, those effects are short lived. Once the person falls out of their daily yoga routine, they starting feeling less balanced again.

So what you're doing is coming from within, which is beautiful. As long as you continue to reject those emotional, savage, animalistic inputs, your brain will be less inclined to entertain emotional thoughts or inclinations. As a result, you have more energy, might come off as less emotional, but fuck it. Who cares. Let the cry-babies have their ups and downs. Keep being a soldier.

As for me, I'm currently experiencing a little bit of withdrawal, but at least I know the science behind it. I'll get over this emotional cunti-ness I'm experiencing and I'll be able to join you in your profound stoicism. And you're not an asshole. You're a boss.

 

Great explanation! I think though I can not really agree on the last part.
I don't know anything about brainfuctions like you do, but I expect something different on the emotional part.
I think I am having the same effects; my emotional part is a bit confused lately.
I agree this might come from overwriting the addiction by doing nofap, but I don't believe this numbness will last forever.
I believe that when your brain is cured from the addiction new, more healthy emotions replace the old ones. Emotions that are less unstable and very clear.

I don't speak of facts, purely speculations based on my own experiences.
Feel free to correct me if I am totally wrong, but this is something I highly believe.

thanks for the great discussion

 

Honestly man, around day 27 I started feeling depressed... Like flat emotions and just sad. Now, on day 40, I feel such a wide range emotions, some of which feel brand new to me. Its like Im re learning how to be me. Give it time man, soon you will be flooded with emotions!

 

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