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I relapsed but it shocked me.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by RonTheMan, Jan 7, 2019.

  1. RonTheMan

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    So some weeks ago I posted a thread where I shared one of my lady friend's point that poeple get addicted to porn because they start watching it at very young age. If you watch it when your 18+, you find it boring.

    She just watched porn for one time when she was 20 for half an hour, totally got bored because of how fake and unrealistic it looks and didn't look at itit ev. The same lady friend advised me to watch now after 2 years of nofap since I know everything about porn now. It's no big deal and youll get bored by it, She said.

    What she did today she took me to her bedroom, and in her smart TV opened porn clips. I got scared and told her to close it. She said just watch it it's no big deal, you'll find it fake. I said no.

    She said she'll not talk to me if I didn't watch it. Trust me, you'll hate it, its nothing but a fantasy just like movies she said

    For half an hour, she and I watched some 3 lesbian porn. But what i found that I didn't get aroused by any of it. Everything they did seem so fake, even how they approach each other to do sex with each other. I didn't find it arousing, I started yawning.it really looked like some fake fantasies.

    I didn't get turned on, no rush of dopamine in my head, no boner, no precum or ejaculation. In the end, I told her please close it. She did.

    I was relieved by how unsexy, pathetic and fake I found them to arouse me even 1 percent. I got her point that how when I was a kid, I enjoyed it and now when I see it again as a recovered guy, I don't find it arousing or sexy but downright note and pathetic.

    I will not watch porn, never. Because now I'm not interested
     
  2. Hros

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    Personally, I'm not going to test my limits when it comes to this subject as I think it's too dangerous, but I'm glad you made it through alright. Keep it up!
     
  3. RonTheMan

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  4. Yeah porn was never the issue with me. I actually disgust porn, but I wouldn't be cocky if I were you. I had a streak over 200 days and thought I was cured from M, but sadly the devil is there quite soon when you have 1 bad moment. But I get your point, porn is just awful, so far away from reality. Be glad your mind didn't fantasize about your lady friend, because that might even be the most fucked up part. The imagination...
     
  5. Uncomfortably Numb

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    It's a dangerous game to play...
     
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  6. Yeahhhh not doing that I find it more practical staying away from it to not think about it
     
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  7. RonTheMan

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  8. There's no way would I try that even after 2 years "porn-sober". There's nothing to gain, but something HUGE to lose.

    It's actually seriously concerning. If I was an alcoholic who had stopped drinking for two years, what sort of a friend would insist that I have a drink, to "prove" that it doesn't hold any power over me anymore? I make no comment about your relationship with your lady friend as I know nothing about it. For me though, that would be a serious red flag, with any friend.
     
  9. RonTheMan

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  10. Not many people here on 2 years plus of nofap. Perhaps when I reach that level of rebooting I may consider it, but defo not before.
     
  11. A nu start

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    I don't think it's a big deal as some are making out - I do think it is a bit strange of your friend to insist on this. Are you sure she does not harbour some attraction toward you and was maybe hoping to get you 'in the mood'?
    If you can leave it at that one viewing and you were honestly not affected by what you saw then I don't think it's really a bad thing. But if you're all of a sudden craving a porn session it may not have been the best idea.
     
  12. RonTheMan

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  13. Is it safe to assume that your "lady friend" is more than a friend?
     
  14. Ron, you seemed to bei cured. But personally I don't wanna test my willpower/luck right now...
     
  15. David1221

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    It baffles me as well when I look back, and think about how I even got aroused to it. So unrealistic it’s unbelievable
     
  16. SREENII

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    psychological move of your gf to check whether you have ed :D
     

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