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I wanna be straight

Discussion in 'Compulsive Sexual Behavior' started by Cantspeakenglish, Jun 21, 2020.

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  1. Cantspeakenglish

    Cantspeakenglish Fapstronaut

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    Hey everyone

    So I want to convert my sexuality that I feel. I had struggles with starring at man's face. It triggers me when I see good looking guys. But it becomes easier by now where I start to avoid my feeling and be "swag" lol idk what to say or just thinking that he is my friend so it makes my mind relaxed that he is turned out someone that I've ever met. (WHAT! Sorry it's not my language and my logic has broken. You know, because of porn)

    I have never had sex in real life with anyone. I was 'gayer' than I am now. I used to watch gay porn like in 13. Before it, in 9, I don't know, IT'S NATURALLY attractive for me when I saw a man with a sixpack body that trigger me a lot and I want to have one like his. And there is one day when I was obsessed with shirtless thing and started to do exercise--that is sitting up--then I started to play my p. It feels... um unlike now, I think I felt much better pleasure lol (maybe you remember when u first do M). Then I notice a fluid come out from it, I was really worried (I think it was blood) and yeah that's sperm. I still remember how I did M in a class in 9 yo! Wth. From then, I started to search guy masturbate on internet and what I thought was a guy and a guy. Next I started a higher level to watch gay porn. But i dont know why, I'm not interested with str8 one. Am I fool? But, lemme say that I'm still 'ok'. My brain was still functional, I have no guilty feeling until at a moment that my creativity or anything--softskills--started to decline. I notice it when I'm on high school. I'm so antisocial and overthink about everything.

    And now I just want to change my past. I try to watch str8 porn tho it's illegal on my no PMO. Just let say I'm on no MO. Because I believe that it can help me get out of my past. I feel better but, sometimes I still feel that handsome guys trigger me again. Like my heart beat is increasing although I have tried to resist my feeling. But if I see woman, it's like nothing I feel although yea, she is pretty and sexy. So, what thing of woman that can trigger you? (I know it but why?). And how do you feel?
     
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  2. melville

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    There is nothing wrong with being gay. You should not suppress your sexuality, that would be a shame. Straight men react to women in the same way you react to men.
     
  3. I can see where you're going with this. Follow your instincts, that's all I'll say. Keep following the healthy path you're on, no matter what anyone else says.
     
  4. Shimaxizofavegain

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    The thing with this one I think is that the guy questions if the path to liking guys over girls came from accidentally watching gay porn at young age, which programmed his mindset to see 2 men sex as pleasure. When you are a child it's hard to filter information, easily programmable brain. And when it comes to pleasure such as sex, it can hardcode info into your head for a long time..

    My recommendation - stop watching porn. If you see a guy that looks nice, adorable to you, don't judge yourself. Understand where it is coming from and let it pass, the thoughts are temporal. If you want to be straight, you have to become clear headed. If you will have a contact with a girl and you will judge yourself how you acted afterwards, it can create even more problems in your psyche.
    First become clear headed, when you will achieve it through nofap/semen retention + meditation + workout + balanced diet(food makes a huge difference in this situation too), you will naturally be interested in women and will look back at this situation as a challenge for yourself;]
     
  5. LoveIsAllWeNeed

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    So, you're gay. What you feel with men, hetero men feel with women. Don't try to change what is inside you. Your sexual orientation is not by choice, it's what nature gives you. Just be with it. It's perfectly okay.
     
  6. Monk-Mode

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    If you were straight, you might just have the same problems looking at a woman in the face or elsewhere - you would have the same PMO struggles and even worse, as society perhaps expects it from straght guys and makes it very easy for straight guys to drown in lust and destroy their lives, relationships, and marriages. You may be straight; you may be gay. You just need to work toward a more healthy PMO free life and spirituality of wholeness and wholesomeness to be happy, first with yourself and by yourself (else, all your relationships will be needy and codependent) and then with other people - whether family, friends, or eventually significant others of whatever sort.
     
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  7. RogerFM

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    If you're gay, you're gay man, nothing to be ashamed of or even maybe you're bi. So what?
     
  8. Tuinuane

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    My advice would you quit pmo in totality. Your natural attraction would not lie, just don't force yourself to be straight if it turns out naturally you are attracted to men.
    If you resist, it might end up being harmful to you.
     
    Last edited: Jun 21, 2020
  9. PhantomAssassin

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    You might even be bisexual but until you get P out of your life you'll never know. After rebooting you will probably be able to see if you even have sexual feelings with females
     
  10. IbrahimViking

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    You cannot become straight because you are not straight.
    Pretending to be straight is dishonest, and hurtful to women, please, don't do that, and instead start a new life as a happy gay person.
     
  11. fedmom

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    Do you feel regret after cumming? If not you might be gay otherwise.
     
  12. RogerFM

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  13. LoveIsAllWeNeed

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    Same-sex sexual activity, courtship, affection, pair bonding, and parenting among same-sex animal pairs is very common among animals. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homosexual_behavior_in_animals Although this may not be favorable for reproduction it is completely natural.

    Nature is much more diverse than our mind leads us to believe.
     
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  14. PhantomAssassin

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    Do you know what trillions and trillions tons of CO2 means? Not to mention all the other gasses in our atmosphere. Cant you see that each year we're breaking records for:

    Highest amount of ice melted
    Highest temperatures recorded
    Most fires
    Most dead animals
    OPEN YOUR EYES AND STOP SPEKING BULLSH*T LIES
     
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  15. Envoy-ofthe-End

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    Haha "open" your eyes... and you´re following the rhetoric everyone believes. If the majority of people believe it, I know it´s a big pile of shit and I don´t look at it surface level.
     
  16. TrackHawk007

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    Quote me on that please. Or you are just making assumptions?
     
  17. TrackHawk007

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    Talk for yourself my guy, you´re the one listening to the ones that have said porn and masturbation are "healthy" for you.
     
  18. fedmom

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    I don't understand why you can't understand? lol
     
  19. RogerFM

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    How feeling regret or not over cumming will make you gay?
     
  20. fedmom

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    If he felt regret I'm saying he's not gay.
     

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