Porn and drugs will ruin your fuckin life

My man I fee l you bro. Currently 23 yrs, un-employed, suffering from this crap of an addiction. Just finsihed my AA degree but still feel like shit knowing my current position I am at the moment. Litterally feeling lonely and depressed overall about everything. Time for a change, we still have half of 2020 to conquer something. Letd get through this together. Health = Wealth.

 

Hey, things have been pretty rough lately... I've managed to stay clean this year for 47 days until one day when my best friend got back home... we smoked and when I got home I relapsed... the rest is history. I have a very good job but haven't managed to get a girl in 5 years. I tried a couple of times but no big deals, I feel very confused and depressed... this is my first time writing here but I've been reading' posts when I was clean, thought I'll never go back. What can I do when my only friends are heavy smokers and drinkers? I don't like to socialise and I may be akward until I get to know somebody... Hope writing here will help me and help others as well...

 

Hey man, I'm not going to tell you that I know exactly what you've gone through in life, but I can at least relate. I too have had a drug and alcohol problem in the past, and it kept me from progressing further in life. And I've done everything aside from heroin, dmt and pcp.
Once you just become really sick of it, it's easier to stop. Today marks my 63rd day without marijuana, my 12th day of no porn or masturbation and my 8th day without a drink. No substances, just clean. It's not easy, but you can do it man.
I wish I had more to say if you feeling suicidal, but I hope you don't do it. They say that everyone who attempts suicide and fails reports later that they regretted it as it was almost happening, and I believe them because I personally have had friends who attempted it and said the same. And they're fine now, both mentally and in life. But I'd rather have you talk to an expert about that. The national suicide prevention hotline is 1-800-273-8255 in case you need it. Hope you're doing better.

 

lifes tough sometimes, but face it, it cant get any worse from here can it? for me today was one of the worst days of my life, but i keep going, because i believe that there is a light at the end of the road, and i found joy in the thought that it can only get better from here.. pmo and drugs is what brought us here; no one else is to blame than us. face it, accept it, and move on. you still have time between now and the day of your death to turn the tables. how? i dont know. but it starts with taking responsibility for our past sins. there is hope man. for you aswell. you can take my word, bc i know what drugs are. two years ago, roughly this time of the year, i again od'd and i was scared because i iv'd something in my arm which shouldnt be iv'd and for several days my hand was blue and i thought they would have to amputate it.. i od'd again some time after, that was the last time i took drugs - and six months later i met a girl and fell in love, imagine that. well she broke up with me and broke my heart and life sucks since then - but what i want to tell you is that there is always hope and things might happen for you out of the blue. its not so much about us anticipating or trying to manipulating reality in order to obtain something, but rather its about us not giving up. not being defeated. take responsibility man, dont moan and complain, you will get through this, this is as certain as the sun will rise tomorrow.

 

ok so you have a condition well that sucks, but people are handicapped and still cant find success and happiness. is there someone who has ocd and anxiety disorder and made it? according to google there are plenty of people who, despite their handicap, found success. that means, even though you have the OCD/anxiety, you can find success. its all about what meaning you give the things in your life, man. if you say you have this disease and thats why you cant be succesful - well then you wont be ever successful because thats what you tell yourself. your brain will not present you ways how to become successful if it has accepted that its not possible.
from what you tell me it doesnt sound too bad man. 1 - you have a MS degree. that is a big accomplishment and you can be proud of it. 2 - a girl wanted you. ok you didnt ask her out and nothing happened, your fault, but still - she liked you. isnt that a reason to be happy? 3 - you had an outburst at your boss - awesome, you stood your ground. ok i dont know what happened, but some people are just not born to be commanded around. thats normal, i know that from my own experience.

i get that your in a bad spot. but this will pass. and believe me, there is suffering in this world, that doesnt compare to yours.

i have a friend who when she was 17 got diagnosed with a disease. i dont know its name, but it effectively made her loose all abilities to walk and move, and she feels strong pain all the time. morphium and all the other opiods dont help. she is on them 24/7, but its like air for her. she is now 45. for the past 28 years she has been in this condition. she has a bed in a hospital in berlin, and her mother is her only relative, and friend in that town. she cant sleep because of the pain. she hasnt slept for years. i dont know how thats possible. yet she lives on. her hope is the faith and the eucharist..

compare that fate to yours. when i compare it to mine, i am thankful, and i realize, that i havent been thankful, and my not being thankful has been the root for all unhappinness.

“For success, like happiness, cannot be pursued; it must ensue, and it only does so as the unintended side-effect of one's personal dedication to a cause greater than oneself" -Viktor E. Frankl

 

Very heavy worlds written here............

 

One thing learned in going to a lot of recovery meetings though is the fact that people can get clean and clear enough to have a life, and even career. Not to talk badly but a lot of people who share (meaning they have good clean time and are examples) at meetings are not exactly the paragon of mental clarity, have you noticed? They may still have issues, but they do that work and it keeps it in check and some are very gainfully employed, some have relationships - although that may need work in itself and perhaps even a specific recovery program.

Put it this way, you might consider that we're sort of graded on a curve. As the world goes into the toilet not even getting any better puts us in a better place just by not totally losing our shit, it's the truth. Of course it's good to shoot for more than that, but there's a TON of people with addiction issues in the world and I bet there are many who will think you're okay, even if everyone can use improvement.

BTW how are you feeling with the 7 days? I know it's early still but hopefully it's stabilizing a bit there.

 

man, i feel you, but all i can say is keep going. maybe do something new. something unexpected. you will find your drive, your heart again. put yourself in new settings, situations.

have you asked yourself, why you have set yourself this goal of making 100k? if i would guess, it was because it would have given you a sense of significance, right? but you can be significant in other ways. same goes for girlfriend. there was a similar post and someone asked: if your girlfriend left you, what would you miss?

i think the video below would be interesting to you:

 

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Bro you have books on amazon + you can exercise at home or go out and jog. Gym is only one of many ways to exercise.

Btw, because the title says "Porn and drugs will ruin your life". Did you know that drugs are legal in the Netherlands and people take them without becoming addicted? But of course they are also a bit more educated on how they work etc.

 

The Economy is in a bad spot. Give it time and you'll find a job.

Porn is killing our spirit. And just like how women don't want an unemployed guy, they don't want some porn addict. Regular women aren't pornstars nor are they objects for our sexual pleasure. We need to quit this addiction to learn respect.

Drugs are bad too. I had a close friend a few months ago overdose on pills. Don't touch the stuff.

Don't end it all. Give yourself some time. You will be fine. Just be patient