Feel extremely suicidal

Hello,

I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing both the ups and downs during the reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings you are having won’t last forever. It will get better with time, if you are patient and wait.

In the meantime, please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis, we often need someone their to put our lives in perspective. So please contact someone who can help and don’t hang up on them. The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world. Also, if you don’t feel up to actually talking to someone on the phone, StopSuicide maintains a list of online instant messaging and chat suicide prevention resources.

You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes it feel like you don’t have any more options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feelings you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you, and we will all be cheering for you to get through this!

-Beamer
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Very sorry to hear you are struggling ahighertruth. I've been where you are at. I know how depressing it can be not having a job living with people who don't support you. It can be so deadening and numbing I know. You feel like life has closed in on you, contracted. Like all the doors to having a normal life are closed. Like you'll never feel okay again in your life. I'm familiar with all that. However, those thoughts are lies. It may not seem better, but when you are at a very low point in your life things usually improve. Just be patient, and keep a good perspective. You may be feeling bad right now but that doesn't mean you will always feel bad. Feelings are like clouds in the sky. Sometimes they might even cover the whole damn sky, but no matter how many clouds there are, behind them the sun is always shining. Find that "sun" in your own life, that part of you that can step back from your feelings and watch them.

When you are depressed and suicidal it is extremely helpful to share these feelings with someone so they can give you a better perspective on life and remind you that everything is not all dark. Since your family isn't supportive, it would help to call a suicide hotline. Follow the links Beamer posted above for resources for online suicide hotlines.

It can also be helpful to re-frame things. Yes lots of things aren't going right. The job situation is bad, the family and living situation isn't ideal, but is there anything that is going well or, if not that, just okay? Focus on that. Make improvement in the areas you can while you wait for the other issues to resolve themselves. Focus on taking care of yourself: exercise, some form of mental awareness like meditation or prayer if you are religious, a good diet, good sleep hygiene. Doing this will build a foundation for better mental and physical health and more resilience to stress and a greater ability to find and/or take advantage of opportunities. So if the job and family situation aren't working out, focus on what is.

Remember: depression may make you feel like you don't have any options besides suicide, but that's a lie. There are always other options. We're rooting for you to get through this!

 

1. Call a suicide hotline
2. Go to addiction meetings online and keep your camera on. It may be slow but a lot of people are in bad shape like you, but they're trying to support each other. Don't expect one meeting to miraculously fix it