[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Hey Guys! I was out for three days for my Bday with friends out of town! It was a great weekend! Needless to say it was great and I had no urges or bad thoughts because I was busy having fun haha Now I am back! Didn't have time to read all posts but will read again from tomorrow!

Day 78 No M
Day 183 No P - Another big Milestone! I have not watched any actual porn for more than 6 months !!!

Gonna watch this today!

Have a nice one guys!

 

Do or do not, there is no try!
Yes, you can!

 

Day 72 & 73, 1.752 hours of the rest of my life

 

2 days in! Day 3 today.

 

IMO wet dream is rooted in your thoughts, imagination and fantasy about explicit things. i used to have a lot of wet dreams ( even twice in the same night ) because i was always thinking about girls but wouldn't not masturbate. As we know the content of the dream is always linked to our daily activity or past events , so we must stop thinking or wathing bad things if we want to avoid wet dream. Moreover, it is crucial for us to avoid such things when we have a long period of celibacy. Even small exposure whether via thought or sight , it may cause havoc at night.

 

I would agree with this. It's important to try not to fuel the fire re thoughts. Especially don't watch P without the intention of MO. That's just gonna make our minds go bananas.

 

Day 10. I joined this forum 238 days ago. Of those 238 days, I was 208 days without M’ing to P.

 

Hey @Timothy_James, I totally recognise what you say about not facing your emotions. What I've been doing now when I'm at the computer is that I have an Excell-file open and every time I feel the need to run away from whatever I'm doing by going to Facebook or Youtube or, worse, porn, I write down what it is that I want to run away from. And then when I feel myself returning to that thing again and again, I know it's a serious thing and I have to take some time to at least just feel that emotion that I'm running away from. So I take a break and just do nothing, just sit and feel uncomfortable (or sad or nervous etc). By facing it, I usually find a solution, or it slowly fades away by itself.

Now, I can do that because I'm still working from home by myself; being around colleagues and, even worse, in a tense situation with colleagues, obviously makes it harder to take breaks like that. But the diary thing could be something you could try and work with at the office.

Anyway, good luck, your work situation does sound stressful and it's the kind of thing that would lead to a lot of urges for me as well.

 

Day 6

 

Day 10/90. Double digits Keep up the good fight everyone!

 

day six
when i relapsed, i knew i'll pay it hard.. and the disaster happened last friday night, i had exam (online course) and my internet didn't work, twas the exam i dread the most,
the data plan's deadline is supposed to be on june 28th i thought, but it stopped suddenly, twas a bad surprise! i couldn't do anything, i had no other way to reach the teacher, twas at 2'30am!! no topups, nth!!
while waiting for morning, i cried til i found sleep, never cried for my study before but then i did! i dunno about karma but i realized then twas my punishment..
still, could make it up with the teacher afterwards so i call it love&mercy

 

Just peaked for 20 minutes at a video I suddenly remembered and some related videos, so I have to reset. Managed to not really touch myself, but it still was not a good idea.

 

Hi guys, I started this challenge on Friday but i relapsed today. It might seem quite commical to fail within three days but this experiece has had me realise how much of a problem i am facing and has actually motiviated me even more to fight this addiction and take back control of my life. So yeah, wish me luck, and i wish luck and strenght on everyone else on this journey.
(PS it told me to make an anonymous account name and im not very creative haha)

 

day 0

 

Day 68!

 

Starting day 5... Please, one day at the time.

 

I can see what led me to my peeking just now: yesterday I spend a few minutes playing out a certain situation in my head that I've seen versions of in a lot of videos and that always triggered me. I didn't watch anything yesterday, but just actively thinking about it as something positive and desirable (which I think in reality this situation really wouldn't be so much) set me up to watch a video of a scene like that today.

Watching the scene didn't really turn me on though, which made me realise: not doing PMO is actually not an effort at all, in fact, it's the opposite. For me to engage in this world of fantasy and getting turned on by it, that's what requires a huge effort. Every time I put time and intention and focus in trying to get excited. And I can simply choose to not do that.

 

Day 10/90. In my opinion it is hardest period cuz imagination hit the brain and "tool".

 

Keep going, ...

 

Relapsed after only 3 days lol. Pretty shocked at that but never mind.

I know exactly how it happened.
Mindlessly looked at an image of a celeb with no top on. Walked away, then later on convinced myself it was a relapse and thought 'oh well may as well go all in and PMO' and start again tomorrow...

On the plus side, what I looked at was really mild, which is a nice improvement from the hard core kinky stuff.

Day 0