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forgiveness is the best cure..30+ days of Clean.

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by New_born, Jul 1, 2020.

  1. New_born

    New_born Fapstronaut

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    Hi Everyone.
    This is a 26-year-old male from India.
    About my past self, came in contact with this satan at about age 13.
    was a bright student and scored very well in my board exam but at the same time, some "Excitement" things were also making space in my life.slowly slowly was getting attractive towards that "false happiness" and simultaneously was losing interest in my study.it was an amazing and full of excitement to watching adult movies and also started skipping regular coaching classes for that.
    Soon after two years, (1)scored less in my 12th board examination.
    felt very bad at that time about my result but still somehow got admitted to the college
    in a Pharmacy degree. As I kept doing watching XXX movies and masturbating soon time was flying and at the time of declaration of the First-year results when my friends got passed and cleared all subjects, (2)I was declared failed and became a college dropout.
    it was devastated as from being a school topper to a college dropout. I could not understand what was wrong happening with me, unable to bear the pain, and being ashamed of my First-year performance I changed the college and joined new course in information technology.
    on the other line of my life, I was spending more time on porn movies. Multiple tab open at a time but still not feeling satisfied and looking for a desired scene was increasing.
    in my new college met a good friend through him got to know for the first time that " porn is not good for brain and body". It was very difficult to believe at first but as time moves I realized that his words were true and PORN was the reason causing my life growth in a negative way. still feel amazing that why I did not take some serious steps at that time.
    During my final year of college, I got a dream to join the ARMY and serve my country and its people. (3)given six attempts and thanks to lack of focus, couldn't clear a single written exam. Soon I became ineligible to join the army as per age criteria and with that (4)my dream to join the army was over.
    somehow I realized that something is there which is stopping me from being what i want to be and achieve. by spending some time with the self I got to know that one of my favorite habits (watching porn) is the main cause behind all my downfall.
    it was in 2017 that i came to know about this website and from there onwards my journey to become porn-free started. But as you all know that it is not as easy as it seems to fight with this demon.
    i was making many mistakes and one of them I recently realized was, regret that porn gave me indirectly. (above-mentioned points). I was thinking about my past failure and kept on lamenting on those painful moments.

    From June /20 i forgive my self for my past mistakes and trying to forget all my failures and trying my best to leave peacefully with the present and working towards my better future.

    Forgiveness is the best cure i find for my self and easily crossed successfully 30 days of nofap challenge.

    From my own experience here i am sharing the bad effects of porn on life.

    1) Lack of concentration.
    2) Physically and mentally week.
    3) Hair loss / Whiting and thinning.
    4) Lack of interest in a social gathering.
    5) poor performance in job and study.
    6) cant be enough serious to pursue a dream.
    7) lack of motivation...and many more you can learn from others' experiences.

    Steps were taken by me during 30 days nofap challenge.

    1) wake up early in the morning (6 AM) and early to bed (10 pm)
    2) Read ..Read..Read.
    3) Drink lots of water.
    4) 5 min Meditation.
    5) Evening walk
    6) Staying away from Youtube .( top reason for relapsing and trigger causing )

    The next 60 days is to focus on (Step-2) which I will share after successfully completing of 90+days nofap. till then I wish everyone to stay safe, stay porn free.
     
  2. Enigma897

    Enigma897 Fapstronaut

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    Congratulations to you Soldier!
    Well done on building the discipline that required you to carry out all those positive habits. That was only the beginning now you got the rest of the journey.
    thank you.
     
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  3. YSLattB

    YSLattB Fapstronaut

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    Congrats man. I had the same experience as yours. I was an excellent student but as soon as I started watching porn my life became a disaster literally. My grades never became as high as they were. Even worse now I have a bilateral varicocele that I have to deal with and it keeps me from studying because it hurts if I sit down too much. Thankfully, at least I stopped masturbating now and im past the 30day mark. Aiming for a life without porn or masturbation. I just want to live a normal life like what everyone does. I really regret what I did and the harm I caused to myself :emoji_sweat:
     
  4. ImASinnerWhoJesusSaved

    ImASinnerWhoJesusSaved Fapstronaut

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    Well said! Forgiveness is necessary. Shame will keep a person locked in their addiction. Keep living healthy! I'm proud of you.
     

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