A 3 year long journey of hardship to reach greatness (part 1: the beginning)

Introduction
My name is Robin, also known here as Daxos. I use my real name to make this more personal. This will be the most vulnerable post I ever wrote. I am now nearing 24 years old and I am from the glorious Kingdom of the Netherlands.
My brothers, my success story is long overdue. I don't even know anymore what day I am on. I counted all the days during the challenge, but I accidentally threw away my notebook which contained those dates, my resolutions and my goals. I do know, however, that I must be reaching day 250 or something soon. I am not sure why I refrained from writing my story. Probably because this story is going to be longer than all the fucking Harry Potter books to write. I have, however, decided to do write the story now. I have earned my place among the NoFap gods. I will share with you my journey of the past 3.5 years from the moment I realized I had PIED, to the day I am writing this story. I've been on this forum for a long time and it is time to pass the torch to the next generation of NoFap legends. This will be long story, so take some snacks to nibble and set yourself some nice tea with honey. Indulge in my pain and joy. Happy reading. This post will be part 1 of who knows how many. I hope I can reach as many of you to warn you of classic idiotic mistakes I made and the consequences and pain I had to endure because of that. But I also want to show that NoFap will literally make a god out of you. Stop being a filthy porn pleb and become a NoFap patrician.


Small backstory of porn use to understand where my PIED came from
I remember seeing and using small bits of porn at a very young age (between 8-10 yrs old). Porn had just become main stream and pretty accessible. I was a great fan of newgrounds.com, and this site had porn related stuff as well. I was unfortunate to have my first bits of porn there. From my 14th year, I was pretty much a daily user until I completely broke free from porn in my last streak from the past 250 or so days. I never really progressed to more edgy and weird porn. I never developed fetishes. I did however, at a certain time, progress to looking at prostitute profiles to get a highly new dopamine rush since it made everything a bit more realistic. I truly think this progression was what accelerated my downfall towards PIED and what eventually led to direct PIED.

What the f*ck is happening?
January 2017.
I was meeting up with a Greek girl I met in Amsterdam. I went to her apartment and things went giggity real fast. Everything went well and I ploughed her deep like ancient cows did on agricultural ground ***NSFW spoiler too late?***. 15 minutes later, I suddenly started losing my erection. I was like "what is this shit?". I thought I had to be fatigued or tired or whatever. I didn't really care for it, since it was the first time it had happened. She didn't really care as well (probably because she needed rehabilitation from being drilled to the earths core). We said goodbye and I forgot about it soon after.
1 week later I had met up with a Hungarian girl (What is it with me and foreign girls?). It was giggity time quickly as well now, but this time I couldn't even get an erection from the start. Now I still was not really worrying, but I was confused. I didn't understand. I left her quickly because I really needed and wanted to google what was happening. She was quite annoyed that I left so quickly haha

Okay, so this random dude from the internet says I have got PIED (what even is that?)
Mid January 2017.
So I was in my car headed home. I remember staying with car at a small car rest area at a gas station close to Almere (halfway home). I was browsing google on my phone because I did not have the discipline and patience to wait till I go home to browse properly on my desktop. I got a lot of useless articles and info about losing erections. You know, the usual urological stuff that only matters if you are over 50 years old. But then I somehow stumbled upon a reddit post regarding NoFap. I read about a guy that had PIED (didn't know yet at that time what it stood for). But the dude talked about losing his erections due to porn overuse. I found it really intriguing and it shocked me that I used porn since I was 14 and never really thought for a second what the impact of it could have on me. I was just a mindless consumer of porn like any other 20 year old bloke. The post redirected to yourbrainonporn.com, and I started reading immediately. I was on that gas station for maybe 2 full hours before I left. I read so much logic stuff there that made so much sense, I just never asked the right questions and I never even looked at how my destructive habits made this reality I was experiencing. I now knew NoFap was a possible solution and that I was now an unfortunate but necessary victim of PIED. NoFap was the way out. NoFap was my focus in life now.


Part 2 will come soon if this post gets enough attention and feedback. Don't get me wrong, I am not doing this to farm attention and likes, but this took about 1.5 hours to write and I have a lot of things to work on right now. I do this to help, but it is hard because I have to dig deep to remember the past 3 years.


Aeterna Victrix

 

I remember you brother. Congrats on making it to day 62 as of now. That is a wonderful accomplishment. But be wary not to think you are already there. Many guys with PIED report that they needed more than 90 days to fully recover. I had the same. I remember that in my first big streak of around 80 days I still didn't have good erections. I relapsed because of that fear. That was so unfortunate because I could have been so close to be healing healed. After I did some more streaks I started getting good erections far sooner in my streaks. Sometimes even in the early 20 days.

You also need to be wary that you are not holding on to a shitload of stress during this challenge that you might store in your pelvic area. That exactly was how I developed my CPPS (pelvic issues), and this can really hinder good erections. If you still feel like you need reassurance direct advice, I would recommend going to either a urologist to see if there is anything wrong physiologically and/or mechanically. The weight of a urologist telling you that there is nothing wrong physically really helps. The other option is to let a pelvic floor physical therapist look at your pelvis to see if you problem lies there. A lot of men have pelvic floor issues without knowing. A lot!

For now I can only suggest you do one of the two above, and to keep on doing NoFap, as 62 days is amazing, but often not enough to notice the big erection changes. I wish you the best. Stay strong

 

I will make a NoFap post about recovery today. I will notify you when I completed it.
I really am against kegels in most cases. Kegels are only good if you have a weak pelvic floor. Kegels can do much more harm than good if you don't directly need kegels to strenghten your pelvic floor. Way too many men have a tight pelvic floor and have no idea, and when you then also do kegels, you only increase the tightness and muscle tonality to a point where you develop nasty pelvic issues like I did.
I will also send you a private message in a couple of hours to try to find a possible cause to seeing to improvements in these 62 days. It very well could be that you have a certain habit or 'fault' in your NoFap challenge that prevents you from progressing. To list an example, some guys do NoFap but still look at girls' pics on instagram. Yeah, when you do that, you are not going to see much improvement. You are just substituting.

 

Love that last line. No greatness is for free. You will and must sacrifice something for it. I will remember your quote whenever I catch myself slipping

 

I will try my best not to disappoint you brother

 

Part 2 is out
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...each-greatness-part-2-the-first-tries.282990/