The danger of letting your guard down

Yup yup. Threw a 93 day streak away for nothing just because I felt like I didn't need to be careful anymore.

 

I've been there and back twice, 100 and 110 respectively - probably a year ago, before I fell into this rut. You'd think you'd learn a lesson after the first time. I didn't. You really can't let your guard down, I think that's a lesson far too many people learn the hard way. Humility is important. You are not a hero, you are an addict. Don't think you can strut your stuff just because you're X days clean.

 

Amazing you guys have gone so long, something to be proud of but from what I read here, even after all that time, if there is a relapse it can bring back the addiction quickly.

 

Great to hear you reach 135 days. I have a question about your morning wood quality. Does your morning wood 100% hard? I have concerns about my morning wood. My morning wood is maximum 70% hard and my daytime erection is maximum 50%.

 

Be careful about women attraction though because they're succubus meaning energy thieves. That lady lying next to you after swimming and she married, that's was a succubus right there. She committed adultery and will be quick divorce. So next time it happens, flee from fornication.

 

I do 62 days. I never have 100%morning wood. Do you remember when you start to have 100% morning wood?

 

The addiction never ever goes away. It’s like a drug addiction. I too have been complacent in my sobriety many many many times. It all leads down the same dark road.

 

That sure is the truth. It always seems the same to me, the aftereffects - I always need the chaser which does the final damage. Somehow a lot of us forget what we learned, or maybe it never sunk in hard enough. I'm back here and I really need those reminders of what I'm in for if I act out again.

 

Thanks for your reply mate. Still feel happy for you, you can reach 100%. We are at same age..I dont know what happen to me.

 

Yeah I had the same problem. You just say "oh I made it so far. I can relapse now or I can watch something because I deserve it". Unfortunate fact - you deserve nothing. You've treaded down a wrong path in life and this is the consequence. It's either you face the war or get buried under the ground like the rest of average souls. I think that's what I like about nofap, it's an innate red pill decision that invokes a higher spiritual consciousness. It's hard to maintain but the better we get, the better we begin to see the truth.

Went on ramble there. Well done your streak lad!