Suicidal thougts

Anuj7888908 · Jul 8, 2020

Hello i am 25 years old male from india, fapping since 13 years of age. I am sure there are very few people on earth who porn addicted more than me. I watched porn 24*7, 365 days. My addiction is on extreme level, because of porn addiction i am broken, my carrer is broken, my life is broken, my body is broken. I am going to do nofap for forever so that i can focus on my carreer. But there is something wrong in my mind for last two years, i meanl i was straight, i am straight, and i want to be straight in future also. But why i am getting homosexual thoughts in my mind, thougts like i am giving blow job to a man. I hate myself for these thoughts, i am controlling myself but these thougts always comes in my mind..... some time i think to do suicide because i dont want to be gay because i was not gay, i born as a straight guy. I know very well that there is some mess in my mind. When i think about giving blowjob to a man i get instant boner but when i think about women i dont get instant boner..... there is something wrong in my mind..... please help me how can i get rid of these homosexual thoughts??

Anuj7888908 · Jul 8, 2020

Hello i am 25 years old male from india, fapping since 13 years of age. I am sure there are very few people on earth who porn addicted more than me. I watched porn 24*7, 365 days. My addiction is on extreme level, because of porn addiction i am broken, my carrer is broken, my life is broken, my body is broken. I am going to do nofap for forever so that i can focus on my carreer. But there is something wrong in my mind for last two years, i meanl i was straight, i am straight, and i want to be straight in future also. But why i am getting homosexual thoughts in my mind, thougts like i am giving blow job to a man. I hate myself for these thoughts, i am controlling myself but these thougts always comes in my mind..... some time i think to do suicide because i dont want to be gay because i was not gay, i born as a straight guy. I know very well that there is some mess in my mind. When i think about giving blowjob to a man i get instant boner but when i think about women i dont get instant boner..... there is something wrong in my mind..... please help me how can i get rid of these homosexual thoughts??

Anuj7888908 · Jul 8, 2020

Hello i am 25 years old male from india, fapping since 13 years of age. I am sure there are very few people on earth who porn addicted more than me. I watched porn 24*7, 365 days. My addiction is on extreme level, because of porn addiction i am broken, my carrer is broken, my life is broken, my body is broken. I am going to do nofap for forever so that i can focus on my carreer. But there is something wrong in my mind for last two years, i meanl i was straight, i am straight, and i want to be straight in future also. But why i am getting homosexual thoughts in my mind, thougts like i am giving blow job to a man. I hate myself for these thoughts, i am controlling myself but these thougts always comes in my mind..... some time i think to do suicide because i dont want to be gay because i was not gay, i born as a straight guy. I know very well that there is some mess in my mind. When i think about giving blowjob to a man i get instant boner but when i think about women i dont get instant boner..... there is something wrong in my mind..... please help me how can i get rid of these homosexual thoughts??

kropo82 · Jul 8, 2020

You can get professional help for the suicidal thoughts. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis, we often need someone their to put our lives in perspective. So please contact someone who can help and don’t hang up on them. The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world. Also, if you don’t feel up to actually talking to someone on the phone, StopSuicide maintains a list of online instant messaging and chat suicide prevention resources.

You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes it feel like you don’t have any more options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feelings you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you, and we will all be cheering for you to get through this!

But specifically about your homosexual thoughts, it is difficult to access your true self if you are using porn. Take a step back, work on a reboot, and once you have spent a significant amount of time away from porn you will know what your real sexual self is like.

iwontfail67 · Jul 8, 2020

https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...fetishes-a-complete-guide-for-freedom.283059/ Read this bro. You aren’t gay and you never will be. The only reason you “want to give a blowjob” is because that act is extreme. Do you have low self esteem? The reason you respond to that crap is because you’re essential responding to extreme porn. It’s breaking through the desensitisation. Your brain doesn’t care if it’s gay or straight, it just sees it as something new, and because doing gay stuff for a straight male is the absolute opposite and most extreme thing one can do (excluding child shit), the addiction latches onto it because it’s extreme. Stop porn bro. Read that article and you will figure it all out.

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