THE DUELS OF NOFAP: NO PMO TOURNAMENT | OPEN FOR ALL

We never knew who got us .
Ain't normal the angel of death to cause death ? I am just curious .
Can't it be you praying to whoever you want and be saved by the good force ,
I mean.. who you associate demonic powers with being saved ?

 

I feel great now .
I didn't really feel like masturbation was the answer,
but I didn't feel abstinence was the answer,
cause after 37 days,
I felt full and tired of doing it more,
and when I did it,
the liquid I didn't like the colour (not the first time going far and see this , too, when I was in the shinobi I reset around anbu member first try, so that was like 41 days , so probably there is my abstinence limit right now, cause if I didn't I was about to be NUMB not doing so . I'd have been unable to rest, irritable, self-destructive etc etc. Now I took a step back prolly, to make steps further , my friend ,
unhealthy colour .
It gets old..
I think those yogis and monks are truly
tormenting their souls .

We should be free, but what is freedom ? Somebody, prolly the yellow sonic said about the pleasure . I didn't feel pleasure, actually if that matter . I just didn't want to continue .

Now I am doing fine and will again build some days and see what is happening, due to my NATURAL logical thinking of it .

Thank you for the support and stay away from PMO ; )

 

It will be useful for me and prolly others if you
and @MONSTER MONK share an 100+ days reset exp .
I talked with @fg4795 who is in the same category, but he
keeps on insisting he is addicted, which I respect , it is his
feel for it, but in that case I cannot gain the experience information needed .

I have been going often for like 30+ days, with a record of 75 prolly, i don't rememeber and ..
There is difference between how I started so much years ago like 5-6 years . 1 and a half here . And now .

@Alex_Al says he know got eyes for it, sees it . I feel the same for very long time, even with a reset .
I have never been lustful to women in general . Just I am asking you all about .. the point where I cannot go no more, there is no point in going after a certain point in my head .

I actually think that going more than 20+ 30+ days brings me some anxiety of doing so . I feel good though, like all the time . I am the same on day 30 and day 1 .

But there is so much I wanna learn . Though, it seems my exp. won't work, cause after time of abstinence I don't feel good .

There was that category of chinese taoist who says for 20-30 age to masturbate not more often than 1 every 3 days . Smth like that . I find no difficulty going a week, even two . It feels good and natural for a week or two, or even more, but there always comes a time where I feel bad . I have no urges anymore . It is not urge, I am telling y'all, just it comes time that I don't wanna retain no more .

Everybody feel free to say something on this .
Much love, guys, when I come back, will read your help. Thank you .

 

GG brother! Hoping to see you back soon!

 

I see a burning desire in you to improve. That will surely take you down the right path!

 

I find running great too. Sometimes running teaches us that we have within us the strength to face life’s greatest problems. I used to run regularly,but this lockdown has stopped be from doing so. Keep up the good habit!

 

Great read!

 

I’m happy for you!

 

Day 16 check in

 

In my honest opinion,binging is prevalent in this community after a relapse,is because we all want to get back on track with a new streak asap. And that means enjoying the “pleasure” as much as possible,to the point of exhaustion,that you detest the source of pleasure. Sometimes it works,sometimes it doesn’t. One of my recent streaks started great cause I didn’t feel the need to binge.

 

That's why I like to talk with you my friend. Sharing information sincerely.
Just talking on our common ground to see if we can help each other.
You do not expect anything from me, and I don't from you .
Sometimes it is quiet "sad" instead of flattering, to be treated as "holder of truth" just because of my counter.
Nobody of us is his own counter.
There's so much more out here.
It will not be reaching an x amount of days that will save me.
I am defeating porn. I am trying to.
Because it ruined my life.
Because I like your trust in me, but indeed I am still addicted.
Because it is sad to say. But I am different than many of the users here.
Many of the users in here are here to defeat an "addiction" that I would not call an addiction.
You're not addicted if you're doing it once per week.
You're addicted if in 2017 you had an average of 4x per day, and a personal best of 8.
I reached rock bottom.
I had sexual health problems.
I was on lowest point of my life.
That's why I don't stop.
That's why I am on 125 and will keep going.
That's why, after my last relapse, I understood I was again a bit addicted. Less than before. But still there.
Maybe this time will be different.
And the counter will become less important.
Because I will be free.
My relapse after 100+ are not meaningful right now.
Maybe this one will be.
And you will be the first one to know .
Thanks for reading me.

 

"The key to life is accepting challenges. Once someone stops doing this, he's dead."
-Bette Davis

 

Day 36

 

It could be like this:

Your internal economy is such that you know how to use dopamine properly, so you've got a natural surplus. Like living in an economy on the gold standard, you can earn money, save money, and watch it grow in the bank while still taking care of your daily needs. This contrasts with someone living in a debt-based financial system where they can never get ahead, and nothing truly belongs to them. If the person in the first system wants to buy something fun, like an ice-cream, they can do it without batting an eyelid, as long as they don't go overboard. The person in the second system is so indebted that they can't even afford to think about buying an ice-cream. And the irony is that the first person is able to afford an ice-cream because they're able to resist an ice-cream; the person in the second system is in so much debt because all they want to do all day is eat ice-cream, and that's how they got themselves into debt.

This is how I see part of the difference between people who can handle MO and people who can't. (I don't think P's a good idea for anyone, but it would still apply to P too).