Did I Relapse?

Hello friends! I have been having tight urges since the last three days. And I had a strange experience tonight. I was having urges to M. Then I decided to cold water jet my "D", as I was doing since the last three days, and was able to surpress my urges. Tonight when I was washing my "D" with cold water, holding it with my left hand, I had an erotic feeling. I didn't jerk or fap but was just holding my "D" and was spraying water on it, to clean it. I had a feeling of ejaculation, but didn't see my cum while I was washing it. I am now confused and in doubt that I may have broken my streak. Please comment, whether this is a break in my streak. I didn't see any P before, during or after this incident. I am not sure whether I ejaculated.

 

It depends what your goals are. That's why you need to be specific with yourself so you won't have doubts or questions during a particular situation. Otherwise, you're free to do what you want within the restrictions/guidelines you set FOR YOURSELF. If it were me, I would reset my counter and take the loss. A loss isn't defeat or a failure. Just like in BJJ, you can get submitted or get choked out and you pop back up and roll again no big deal as long as you keep going. I'll say again in case there's misinterpretation: This is only an OPINION.

 

Thanks, for the reply. My parents said it is completely normal for me to M. Now I am confused

 

Doesn't matter. If you want to keep your streak, the number, go ahead. If you want to be tough on yourself, start over. The real point is you're done with PMO, right?

I used to wonder about things like this, mentally labor over my physical progress, etc. But you have to remember, spiritually if you're like that, but at least mentally if you're not particularly spiritual... you are not your body. There's something more to your relationship with what's outside you.

My point here is that it does not matter what happened with your body, it's what led to that. What is step 1 on your path to this sick discomfort in your body and mind? You blame it on something deeper already, yourself. Who is that? What is step 1? How do you, not general "you", but just you... how do you not take that step 1? If you take it, you just fucked up. If you can figure out how not to, NoFap will be a piece of fucking cake.

Note: I just reset my counter for the hell of it to do a new challenge. I don't really make much use of counting anymore as I've developed the full capacity to go 500+ days.

 

Sure it's normal and I would say quite healthy. But people sometimes get caught up in it and forget to take care of their personal lives. I just had intercourse with my wife yesterday and ejaculated inside her. I did not reset my counter because I did not break any of my self imposed "disciplines." At the end of the day, living a disciplined life actually gives you MORE freedom, whether it's time or money.