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Wait I am searching a video of the guy who had a similar past & then he is currently doing monk mode & has achieved quite a healthy sexuality.
Try reading some books everyday.
Choose books freely & slowly slowly implement those lessons without being fanatic. Success will follow. Your mentality will heal. Don't worry.

Haa Got it for you. Patiently see his experiences & learn the helpful & relevant.

 

Give yourself some time to heal. If you are watching porn for 9 years then give yourself 9 months. Go NoFap and make a strong will that you will do it and won't go back to that dark world until you goal is completed.

 

The best thing you can do is get as much personal accountability as you possibly can. There are guys on this forum that are willing to help out. The website SA.org has meetings in your local area to go to, start your stepwork, get an AP or two, and best of all, get a sponsor that you can call daily and check in with. A lot of people start out here and are kind of looking for a way to have the desire taken away from them. And if that's the case, I'm afraid you're in for a huge disappointment, because unfortunately, it just doesn't work that way. You have to do a LOT of hard work to fight this thing. Otherwise, its like sitting in a sinking ship, hoping that things turn out okay. If you don't work hard against the addiction, it will defeat you, plain and simple. I got addicted to porn 35 years ago and I've been fighting it for about 3 years now. The addiction its still as strong as it ever was, but I'm getting better at fighting it because of my recovery stepwork, and the accountability I have with my AP's and with my sponsor.