The most dangerous porn genre available.. trigger warning!!

A bit presumptuous, no? I only stated that the video had a caption "porn is god" because in the post I was replying to, the person had mention how this cult "prays to porn" I noticed the corollary and simply commented. I only went into the detail regarding my apartment to convey to others the severity of my addiction and in hopes of any suggestions whatsoever to combat these highly addictive porn genres.
Good day.

 

It seems like that phrase latched on to you, and its in a way expected, pleasure is the strongest reinforcer for a behavior.

The text couldve said anything, like "broccoli is purple" and you still would've taken it for granted and believe it because it was associated with pleasure.

What you can do is unlearn those words with pain, for example, bite a hot pepper, chew it and hold it in your mouth while staring at those words.

Also, it would be best to consult with a psychologist.

 

Although I never really watched that myself, there was sometimes significant overlap between gooning and transwoman and/or sissy content being shared in the community. And it's hard to rate one genre as "worse" than another one. I mean it mostly depends on your reaction to it.

That being said, gooning isn't just a genre. It's much more than that. It's more like a lifestyle kind of. Of course creating and sharing content with others is a big component, but at least equally important is the support structure around it. Without the constant "encouragement" of other users, hardly anyone would stay as long as they do. The content itself is actually rather basic, at least mostly.

 

The furthest I ever got was one TS actor/actress (idk which one lol) which I watched a handful of times before I quit. The masculine ones I really wasn't attracted to, and was definitely straight, so idk why this attracted me so much- it was like a really feminine girl with a dick. As most people say it is just the porn talking. I feel distanced from that already to be honest. I did ask myself 'what am I doing' whenever I PMO'd to it. I never got into sissy and not really into TS, just this one. it felt so degenerate.
But I wasn't that scared because I knew I was straight and that it was just the porn talking. Im not sure why I was so aroused by this one actor tho. maybe it was because it was a female with really feminine traits had something new lol. im not sure.

gabe deem cited an experiment in the video 'porn is a public health issue' saying how male rats who mated with female rats sprayed with the smell of rotting flesh linked it to their sexuality. they would then play with toys and be attracted to that rotting flesh smell. the unconditioned rats were repulsed by it.
just goes to show how easily your sexuality can be warped. only way is to quit.

 

Yeah I only watched feminine ones as well. I only realized this week that I actually never got really that deep into this genre and watched maybe 20 videos max since my addiction began. Still this caused me a lot of anxiety since I'm not gay and this isn't your stereotypical straight porn.

 

Hmm so I just seem this forum thought I'd put out there that I have been on this addiction for over 10 years mind you I'm only in my mid 20's I started late primary school and I started on this specific genre and haven't stopped since it is quite addicting and has ruined my brain

 

Its pretty fucking awesome isnt it??! i LOVE getting stoned on meth and weed and then relapsing for sissy gooner hypno!! AWWHHH YEA! IT FEELS SO GOOD TO GET DUMB FOR PORNO!!!!!

 

Oh shit i didn't even know that porn hypnosis exists.Never watching porn again i don't want to get brainwashed...

 

Soft influencing I see. And also brain washing. And also manipulation

 

Same here.
To me this is a life or death combat..
If I relapse again and fall into the abyss of this evil genre...I will be thinking about taking my own life because I can't stand it anymore.

I wasted to best years of my life because of it. I can't have the luxury of failing again. I am seriously thinking about cutting Internet once for all in my apartment.

 

Feel the same.

I also have this life or death combat feeling towards alcohol (I'm an addict). The last 2 days were my first completely sober time for months. I felt so different and I fully realized again how much potential I am wasting and not putting to use. Today I relapsed again, both on alcohol and then PMO.

The mechanism is the same - all or nothing. One beer and I will get drunk. One clip on amateur sites and I will binge. For me it's either 0% or 100%. After reading a lot in different forums, I can sense that this is the case for almost all addicts. Regardless whether it's porn, alcohol, nicotine, cocaine or gambling. Basically all the same it seems. Once a full-blown addict you have to abstain for life, because you are not able to control the substance. There must be something wired in the brain of all addicts that make them feel this way.

I also many times think about suicide. It's just thoughts. Never attempted it and never got to the point yet of really wanting to do it.

There is one major thing that makes me go on despite all relapses and dark thoughts:

PMO has taken my youth and 20s from me. The physical peak and for most people the time with most sexual and social encounters. Now I'm 30 and I'm thinking I still have a few good physical years that I can use before I'm 50 or something and age might make it a little difficult to change my life 180 degrees. Given your profile you are 38. So to change course is still possible. How long have you been addicted to PMO?

When times are particularly tough, I tell myself: at least try to stay alive and try to better yourself for 1 more year. Then you can re-evaluate. And hopefully extend for another year. Suicide is an irreversible action. Yes, it is a possible emergency exit. But once done, it can't be undone. The implications are severe. However, it's a possible option that will always exist. It's even kinda relieving. It's not running away. So just try for one more year and exhaust really all possible options there are to better your life. Like really all options.

 

I remember this genre. I always arrived to it at the end of my hours of long sessions, it was like the deepest of the depths. I never saw it as actually hypnotizing.

 

Yup. Totally hooked on gooning

 

It's one of those sick genres that actually encourages addiction itself as part of its manipulation. It gives a cheap thrill based on feelings of humiliation and shame and then uses those feelings to get you back into the cycle. So you're right - it is awful. Welcome back to nofap!