I am actually pissed off I can't access porn the now?

It's supposed to piss you off - you're starving the 2-year-old part of your brain that's throwing a tantrum because it wants to feel good NOW! Just wait it out.

On another note, you're Scottish, ain'tcha?

 

First of all, no. I think you're on the right path and shouldn't be thinking how to disable your blocking systems. Keep it up. This energy you're feeling is an important part of being a human. Just channel it into something constructive.

Also, a lot people would appreciate it if you make a tutorial on how to do this type of persistent blocking. I would.

 

Naeb'dy else says 'the now'.

 

The reason why you restricted yourself like that is because you recognize that this is an addiction and you want to recover. You don't want to be the slave of someone or something and allow it to make choices for you. You've taken the first real step by cutting off access, which clears the physical compulsion. Now you have to deal with the mental obsession and that can take some time, so be patient with yourself. I think the porn blocker you got is genius.

One thing that might help is to feel grateful. You have done something a lot of people haven't found the courage to do. That door to recovery only opens now and then, and you stepped through it.

Gratitude is a powerful way to get out of that obsessive state. Here is a guided meditation I use from Tony Robbins that may help out. It's only about 5 minutes long.

 

I needed to read this thread, I feel in a similar mindset with my blocker. Sorry I can't be much of help @skaterdrew, but I'm determined not to get rid of my blockers.
My iPad is set up for my work and nofap, everything else is restricted, someone has the code.
My phone has the digital detox app running all the time, it only allows apps I choose, like my banking app. It costs money to break the detox, you have to pay the app developer.

Like you @skaterdrew I feel pissed off this morning, I'm a little stressed today and the urges are kicking in. My pleasure part of the brain wants to binge

I'm not going to quit. Im going to force my biology into serving me and I'm going to become a stronger person for it and get the benefits

 

Very revealing survey answers... 100% to keep the system.

I'm in the same boat bro. The blocking software, especially if very strict, is definitely annoying, I agree, but the other option - of not having one - is far worse.

It's like shooting yourself in the foot vs. shooting yourself in the face... I'd choose foot over face every time

 

Honestly that sounds quite awesome. Could you let me know what program you use as a blocker? Please. Would be greatly appreciated

 

I think this is a stage of recovery, and it is great to write it out like you have. There is a part of us that craves pornography and is angry, really angry, that we are denying ourselves access to what it wants (needs?) Once when I was feeling like you (though I do not use blockers) I decided to just let that side of myself write one of my journal posts, no edit, no making it NoFap-friendly, etc. This is what happened

Not very motivational! But it is good to be honest with ourselves. Don't bury the sie of you that craves porn, shine a light on it, really understand it, and thus overcome it.

 

What is the name of the porn blocking software that you use. I would like to give it a go

 

So based your post, your blocking system is doing what it’s supposed to do. As far as your right? It’s your right to smoke 30 packs of cigarettes but do you want the consequence of that decision? And is it normal to get pissed off? Of course man, your mood is down which tells me your thoughts are not the best right now, I’d start by working towards more positive thoughts, your brain is dying for dopamine to feel better. Keep that blocking system.

 

Try this: go to Google and type in the search term "roller coaster" site:nofap.com; here are the results I see:



That's almost 1,000 posts mentioning the same issue. I know it sounds harsh but we all have to face the fact that recovering from porn addiction is a roller coaster.

 

What is it that you exactly want? Freedom from PMO addiction? Or whatever else?

 

Man I think you are too fouced on that blocking system instead of healing yourself.
In my view, Blocking porn and etc is just a an aid band, not the cure.
You need to be on a self-exploration journy; when did you started to pmo? why? what role the addiction takes place in your life...
Although I can see how porn blockers are very useful and easing the abstinence, your goal should be towards self-development and focus on positive goals in life.
It may keep you away from relapses at the short term, but real life isn't include temptation blockers.
It's all come to our life managment strategies: we deal with stress? fap, we deal with lonliness? fapping again, feeling empty?...
Recover without porn blockers would probably lead you to relapse, but you can learn from each relapse whats need to be done to deal with the next...

 

If I were in your shoes, I’d start at square one. What life do you want to live? Who would you have to become to make that dream come true? Focus on building the life you want, setting goals and such. Find someone who is living the life you want to live, who has the relationships and finances you want then learn from and emulate them as much as possible. When you’re defined by a vision of your future, your focus will help you through the rollercoaster of emotions. Whatever you think manifests emotions and those thoughts + emotions are creating your future. I know it’s heavy, but I’ve been in that state of rollercoaster emotions and generally aimless in life before.