I Need Your Guidance

ive been there before, grew up religious, just followed it (well only the basic idea of God being real, but i didnt pray etc), then around 15-16 i was leaning torn between agnotism and religion. I have never thought about atheism because for me it is just unreasonable to think we came from nothing, it is more reasonable to think it is rather unknown, which is agnotism, i was still believing in God but i was like "what if my religion is the wrong one" "what if God isnt even real" so I did more research on all abrahamic religions and checked bhuddism then sticked with the one i agreed with the most, God lead me back to the religion i was born with

i will not state what religion i am because you should experiment yourself what you believe is right, whether that is atheism, agnotism, or a specific religion

it is a very deep topic for most, and will remain so forever

also you said choosing between science and religion, i am confused, they can go hand in hand. A good place to start is to see if the religion you are looking at is compatible with science i guess, which is what i did too

 

Believe in God. ( the universal intelligence, the energy that has no start nor end point , the energy that can't be destroyed) and throw the rest.
It is the faith that creates miracles not dogma.
And miracles are not exclusive to one religious group.

 

Separate God (Love, Creator, All That Is, Father) from religious dogma.
Could God be real, but something people say about Him be false?
Could what people wrote about God be sound advice, but "a god" be just idea that makes human mind expand?
Yes to both questions, though I myself believe only in one of those. Doesn't matter which.
I never understood why people think that religion opposes science. Dogmas clash, and oppose one another - equally true in 'science' and 'religion'.
Your mind is no longer satisfied with what you believed before. That will happen again and again until you croak, at least.
Here is what I believe: the only Truth that is worth believing is the one you can stand behind. By that I mean your truth: start paying attention to how you feel about what you hear and read. When you feel your chest expand, a sense of excitement and relief, you are hearing what is true for you - be it science, a rock song, or the Bible. When what you hear makes you feel a contraction in your chest or solar plexus, when you feel fear - that is a false message you hear or read (or think!). Do not heed.

 

Pray harder.

 

It's OK to have doubts. The book of Job is full of cases in which Job had doubts. The book of James says "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you". Even if you take a small step of faith, God comes nearer to you. Just ask the Lord to give you opportunities that will increase your faith. Go volunteer at an animal shelter, for example.