Almost relapsed with a hooker - a profound realisation on day 68

Hello warriors,

This is my first long streak or I would call it my first attempt at escaping the land of the forbidden foe(The powerful sexual urge). I had never been a PM addict yet that O addiction took me to places and toxic relationships that I have never imagined before. All the while I discovered that I couldn’t go beyond a few months without experienced sexual satisfaction. Masturbation was only a survival instinct for my urges otherwise they’d usually make me go mad. And now at 27 years old, looking to start a new life and discover my passions, I decided to once and for all remove this barrier in my pathway. The urges can’t dictate me no more I said to myself and would only accept the love of a woman when it comes to me by itself. I had a relatively smooth sailing up until today(68 days hard mode) but the quarantine and lack of in person communication with a girl drove me to nuts and I took the risk of calling a hooker. I had to go to her place and as I drove my motorcycle I realised how the people were staring at me as if i am an action hero(yes I was driving fast making quick turns). Although I’ve been enjoying the stares of people since day 20, today was intense. It was then I realised how this would all be gone once I’m done with the hooker and I’m out riding back home, it just hit me how stupid it would be to waste this ongoing streak for an hour of pleasure. And So just as I reached the apartment, I got her call again but I decided to decline and ride back home, I drove like a crazy teen having his first motorcycle and with a new epiphany of my resistance. Honestly this day could have been the worst in a long time but that momentary reminder from the universe of all the benefits that just flashed before my eyes saved me. Guys, if any of you think of relapsing, think hard of your benefits, think hard and get out of your house. Do something crazy or fun all the while reminding yourself that if not for NoFap you can’t have that adrenaline rush all the time! You don’t want to commit suicide at the hands of a hooker or have synthetic sex in your room. Those pimps and pornstars have everything to gain and nothing to lose, and you my friends are only losing if you give up. Never give up! The universe is with you!