Finally checking in for day 15, the beginning of my journey as a brave little Hobbit. Forward to adventure, fellows!
Day 6 Survived ! Damn days 4-6 so hard, yesterday I stayed whole day alone at home. Doing nothing but somehow I managed to survive. True is .... This group, this challenge and you people helped me survive, u were the reason I didnt fail. I couldnt come here and say "relapse". I was like : I cant let down my brothers here. I am there for a reason! For you too! If i fail I might triger some brothers to fail with me as well. Yeah The last sentence is really huge guys, try to think that way : If u fail, some of us might fail with u as well! STAY STRONG and NEVER GIVE UP! Try to feel the love, I feel like LOVE is the ultimate weapon agaist porn ;] So Day 6 is on! Wasnt here for over a month! Admin and rest : I was thinking if we could change the first step to Smeagol/Gollum instead orc. Gollum is kinda weakest guy in Ring industry What u think? ;]
Day 13. Today I have a bad sense over me. I didn´t see porn, nor touch me in a inapropiate way. It´s like my body wants to relapse. That´s a bad habit, a vice. But we are made to virtue. As Don Miguel de Cervantes wrote: <<La senda de la virtud es muy estrecha y el camino del vicio, ancho y espacioso.>> <<The path of virtue is very narrow and the path of vice is wide and spacious.>> It´s easy being an orc and hard an elf. What do you choose? I think that it is a clear answer. However, <<del dicho al hecho hay un trecho>>, that it to say, <<it’s one thing to say something and another to actually do it>>. You must do sacrifices and fight with yourself. Here you have a Fellowship to get rid off that ugly vice. You can do it, we can do it. St. Agnes of Rome, pray for us.
In one hand, it´s a good sign because you didn´t look porn while you relapsed. In the other hand, you can clearly see that some images were putting you in the path of M. Probably, the mayority of us first fall in P (although you only saw a bikini in social media) to finally doing M. It´s rare to go directly for it, and even for our situations, strange. Remember how Smeagol, before kill Deagol, only want his Ring. Then he tried to steal It, and last he killed for It. The path of vice, not only is wide and spacious -as I said in my previous post-, it´s also a slippery slope. Watch your eyes and your thoughts, when the urge -or the curiosity, or whatever- appears. It that moment you can fight. But when you start to fall down in the slide... and the speed increases... Probably you will finish in the wall of PMO at the end. Stay calm. You have us. Try to learn something in each relapse to became stronger. Remember: <<The art of winning is learned in defeat>>. Now you lose battles, tomorrow you are going to win the war.
Hi friends, I apologize, its been awhile since I checked in. Last weekend (7/26) was pretty rough for me. My fiancé left town, and I let my guard down too much. Fell apart quite a bit. With that said, I'm currently 4 days strong, and I just started a 40 day fast on Sunday, so that is bolstering my spiritual game as well. Happy to be pushing forward.
That´s my sister!! Congratulation sis, you´re Rosie now Now to death and ruin and the end of the ring!!! Onward!!!!!!!
Congratulations brother!!! You took off the ring . Here´s some Old Toby Now make haste brave hobbit. The night falls and there´s a quest to do. Good luck!!!!